Insecurities

I have always struggled with my body image. Sharing my body has actually been one of the things that helped me (somewhat) overcome that. I have seen many lovely bodies in looking at other blogs. Not perfect bodies. Not models. Just real women sharing themselves (anonymously) on the internet. It has helped me to feel comfortable enough to share some of my more vulnerable shots. This is another from our hotel photo shoot. Richard loves my body, just as it is. He wanted to take this shot because he found it sexy. Sometimes I love myself and my body. Sometimes I don’t. But it’s mine, and I have to live with it, so I keep trying to embrace it.

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TMI Tuesday: February 18th

The author of TMI Tuesday has decided to end her reign, but we have decided to continue on, going back to the archives. We’re going to continue with 2013, but we’re almost done! So here we are with an archived set of questions.


TMI Tuesday: December 10, 2013

Posted on December 9, 2013 by TMI Tuesday blog

You all know how I love to play “Would you rather…” so we are doing it again. I enjoyed creating these twisted TMI Tuesday questions. Here we go with …

Always expound on your answers, tell us why you made your choice.

1. During sex, would you rather be blindfolded or blindfold your lover?

Jayden: Be blindfolded. It always heightens the senses.

Richard: Probably be blindfolded. If I’m doing the blindfolding there has to be some amount of scene or whatever around it, it’s not something inherently kinky.

2. Would you rather watch your sibling having sex or have the sibling watch you have sex?

Jayden: I’m an only child, but I’d rather be watched in general.

Richard: I’m an only child, but I guess I would rather have sex than watch someone else in general.

3. Would you rather be arrested (not jailed) for soliciting a prostitute or jailed for one month for civil disobedience.

Jayden: Probably for soliciting a prostitute. I’d be afraid of being jailed. 

Richard: Does soliciting count as civil disobedience if I do it for the sake of protesting a bad law?

4. Would you rather give/receive blowjob on a crowded subway car or have sex on a picnic table at a family reunion?

Jayden: Crowded subway, if it’s a fantasy.

Richard: The picnic table is less likely to get me arrested, I think.

5. Would you rather do a strip-tease for your pastor/priest/rabbi/religious leader or for your co-workers?

Jayden: Coworkers, probably. Could be fun, depending on who I picked.

Richard: I’m sure I could find some coworkers who would be cool with it.

Bonus: Would you rather have endless amounts of money or the endless love of your significant other? Why?

Jayden: (Richard answered first this time.)

Richard: Money. Jayden is already madly in love with me, so nothing would change.

Jayden: I like Richard’s answer, so I’m going to steal it. 😉 Love you, Richard!


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1000th Post!

Holy shit! I’ve posted 1000 posts on this blog!

From my first post in March of 2015 to now, I this post marks my 1000th post here. I thought this would be a fun time to look back over the 10 years I’ve had this blog and look at how far I’ve come.

But first! We took 1000 photos (kidding, it was actually 169 photos) at a hotel this past weekend (which is why I missed some Feb Photo Fest pictures. I had to finish this post first!). I want to share a few in celebration of Feb Photo Fest and my 1000th post!

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Impact

The other day, Richard and I had a fun impact play session. We did use a few restraints, but honestly, we didn’t need them much. Usually, I’m very squirmy, even though I love it, but not this time. This time, I was craving it and enjoyed it immensely. Enjoy this FebPhotoFest picture, and come back tomorrow because it will be my 1000th post on this blog!

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The Girl Who… Sexy Story

As I mentioned a few months ago, I am reading the Anita Blake series by Laurell K. Hamilton, which starts with Guilty Pleasures. Onto the short story, The Girl Who Was Infatuated With Death. Each week, I’ll be bringing you two posts: a review of the book and a related kinky post. This is my sexy story!


You don’t need to have read any Laurell K. Hamilton to follow this story! It’s just a fun one written about a girl, slightly older than the one in this story and losing her virginity.

“I don’t want to die a virgin,” she whispers into his ear. His cock throbs at the words, but he pulls back and looks down at her. 

“You can’t be a virgin,” he says.

“Why not?” she replies with a pout.

“Because you live in the sex capital of this college. There’s more sex happening in your dorm than in the whole rest of the state, I bet.” Okay, probably not, but it sounded good. “And you’re beautiful.”

“Yeah, and scared of getting an STD.”

“Okay, that’s fair, but I’m clean.”

“I know. That’s why I’m here.”

“Okay, but what do you mean about dying a virgin? Are you sick?”

She shakes her head slowly, “No, but if I graduate next month and I’m still a virgin, no guy is going to want to take my virginity then.”

He chuckles. Pretty sure she’s wrong about that one, but who is he to argue when she’s offering herself up to him on a silver platter. “So you want me to take your virginity?”

She nods and licks her lips. Other girls, might be accused of trying to lick their lips to appear sexy, but in this case, it’s just that her mouth is dry because she’s nervous as fuck.

“Now?”

She nods again.

He takes her hand and leads her from the common room in their dorm back to his room. He locks the door, sends a text to his roommate, and gestures for her to sit on the bed. She does, and he watches her carefully. He is definitely excited to sink his cock into her tight pussy, but he also doesn’t want her to regret her decision. “Are you sure, Hannah?”

“Yes. Please, Pete. Stop asking me and just do it.”

She takes her shirt off over her head, revealing a bra that’s all sexy lace. She was prepared for this moment. She’s about to take it off when he stops her. “Wait.”

“What, did I do it wrong?”

He shakes his head and tries to suppress a smile. “Let me,” he says, and he sits down next to her. He smooths his hands down her arms and then back up, kissing her lightly. She tentatively kisses him back, and then he unhooks her bra. He kisses down her neck, then her shoulder, then moves to her breasts. He gently pushes her to lay back, and she does, watching him intently. But then when he takes one of her nipples into his mouth, she moans softly and closes her eyes.

He licks and sucks on her nipples until she seems totally relaxed, and then he moves lower, slipping her skirt down over her hips, revealing the panties that match the bra. He smiles appreciatively, as he slides a finger inside her.

“Hannah,” he says.

“Hm?”

“Have you had an orgasm before?”

“Mm, yes,” she says, but she sounds uncertain.

“Have you had an orgasm that you didn’t give yourself?” he amends.

“No,” she admits.

He smiles as he sinks his fingers deeper inside her and wraps his lips around her clit. His tongue flicks against the sensitive bud as he sucks lightly, and her hips start bucking.


“Oh my god, Pete, what are you doing?” She half sits up, trying to see.

He stops for just a moment and says, “I’m going to make you cum before I take your virginity, beautiful. Just relax.”

She lays back, but her body is tense.

He strokes her from the inside and gently licks her clit until her moans become louder and louder. Finally, she starts to pull at his hair, but he hangs on for dear life, keeping his lips locked around her clit and his tongue flicking until she finally throws him off.

She’s panting when he pulls away from her and sheds his own clothes. She watches him with half closed eyes. “What the hell was that?” she asks in a dreamy voice.

“An orgasm, baby. Did you like it?”

“Like it?” she asks. “I loved it.”

“Do you want me to do it again?” he asks with a smile, and starts moving back to her, only having shed his shirt so far.

“Not right now,” she giggles, “but later?”

“Sure,” he says. “You taste great, baby.”

She blushes, and watches as he undoes his belt and drops his pants to the floor. Then his boxers. “Don’t ask me again if it’s okay. I want this,” she says as he opens his mouth.

He closes it and grabs a condom from the bedside drawer. “Me too,” he says, and he slides the condom onto his already hard cock. “I’ll go slow, but if it’s too much, just tell me.”

She nods and her body looks tense.

“Relax, sweetheart.”

She nods again, but nothing changes in her body.

He slips his cock between her legs, then slides along her folds. He keeps sliding up and down her slit, not entering her yet, until she starts to relax.

“What are you doing?”

“Making sure you’re good and ready.”

“I am ready.”

He shakes his head. “No, you’re too tense. I have heard that it hurts the first time, but it’s not going to be better because you’re braced for me to hit you or something.”

The corners of her mouth turn up in a small smile. “I’m trying to relax.”

“I know.”

He slides his cock up and down a few more times, until she starts to squirm under him. “Pete, please, just fuck me already!” 

It’s so out of character for her to use that term that he’s surprised, but he does as she asks, and he angles his hips differently so that his cock sinks into her. He doesn’t press too hard, and before long, he presses against her hymen, which breaks with very little pressure, and then he’s all the way inside.

She cries out when it happens, and he stills inside her. But then she starts to move under him, trying to get him to fuck her. “Oh god, Pete, that feels so good.” And then he starts to move inside her, slowly, steadily, not pushing too hard or too fast, letting her set the pace. But she starts to get anxious. “Faster, Pete, please. I’m not going to break.”

He obliges, and it doesn’t take long before she starts to pant like she did before her orgasm. “Are you going to cum again, Hannah?” he whispers against her shoulder.

“Yes,” she whispers back, blushing.

“Cum for me, baby. I want to feel your pussy tighten around my cock.” 

She nods and bites her lip again. “I”m going to cum. Fuck, Pete, I’m going to cum!” Her pussy contracts around him and he sinks deep inside her one last time before letting his own orgasm overwhelm him. He’d held back just for her.

Both panting, sweaty, and sated, Pete rolls off of her so he doesn’t crush her and pulls her into his arms. “That’s it, Hannah. You’re not a virgin anymore.”

She curls up against him. “Thank you, Pete. I couldn’t ask for anyone better.” He kisses the top of her head and holds her until she drifts off to sleep.


Hope you enjoy this foray into the world of Anita Blake! What else are you reading? Come back on Sunday for my review of the first part of Narcissus in Chains!

TMI Tuesday: February 11th

The author of TMI Tuesday has decided to end her reign, but we have decided to continue on, going back to the archives. We’re going to continue with 2013, but we’re almost done! So here we are with an archived set of questions.


TMI Tuesday: December 3, 2013

Posted on December 2, 2013 by TMI Tuesday blog

The holiday season is in full swing. Thanksgiving, Hanukkah, and I am sure a lot of other annual celebrations that I don’t know about. What are you celebrating this month?

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1. What was the last thing you hid? Why?

Jayden: Richard’s Valentine’s Day Gift

Richard: Richard is busy at the moment, so I’m going to answer for him. Let’s see if he even notices and if so, how spot on I am! So imagine me pretending to speak in Richard’s voice as comically as possible. Jayden’s Valentine’s Day gift.

2. What was the last lie you told? Why did you tell it?

Jayden: I think I lied about something coming in the mail so I could hide a gift from Richard, but that was before Christmas.

Richard: Okay, this one I have no idea. 

3. What do you listen to when you workout?

Jayden: An audiobook or TV show

Richard: Nature, because my workouts are walking in nature.

4. What is your favorite type of exercise?

Jayden: Sex!

Richard: Walking

5. Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Jayden: I’m a night owl, but I have been forced to be a morning person.

Richard: I’m a night owl.

6. If you have a problem falling to sleep what tips/tricks do you use to induce sleep?

Jayden: Richard puts on what we call sleepy noises (white noise). 

Richard: Sleepy noises. And sometimes, if I’m too horny, I just roll Jayden over and get myself off so I can sleep.

Bonus: In the United States we just finished with Thanksgiving holiday. Tell us your:
1. Best Thanksgiving 2013 memory
2. Worst Thanksgiving 2013 memory

Best: I couldn’t tell you anything about Thanksgiving 2013, haha. But 2024… it was our first Thanksgiving in our new house and we got to have the whole family together really for the first time. It was excellent.

Worst: I feel like something didn’t cook? Oh no, that was Christmas. Cleaning up is never fun, but we did a great job as a team.


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The Girl Who Was Infatuated With Death

As I mentioned a few months ago, I am reading the Anita Blake series by Laurell K. Hamilton, which starts with Guilty Pleasures. Onto a short story: The Girl Who Was Infatuated with Death! Each week, I’ll be bringing you two posts: a review of the book and a related kinky post. This is my review of the book post! For those who are new to my blog, you don’t need to read the books to read the kinky stories on Fridays, and of course, you’re welcome to check out my reviews on Sundays!


Description from The Story Graph:  “The Girl who was Infatuated with Death” is a short story by Laurell K. Hamilton. The story was first featured in the Bite anthology along with three other short stories by different authors. The story was also featured in the Strange Candy anthology, along with “Those Who Seek Forgiveness” and “Selling Houses,” as well as several other short stories by Laurell K. Hamilton unrelated to Anitaverse. 


The Girl Who Was Infatuated with Death

Non-spoilery Review:

It was definitely a short story! A quick read, but in the best sense. It was a full story that was a nice inclusion to the Anitaverse. It was originally on the list of books in the wrong place (according to the intro written for each story in Strange Candy, which was a book Richard already owned, so I didn’t have to go searching for it. I think I’ll definitely go back and read all the other short stories in Strange Candy, but for now, I’m moving on to the next novel.

I’m not 100% sure that this story actually fits in where it’s supposed to, especially now that I’ve just started reading Narcissus in Chains and seeing where the story picks up. But it’s a good story nonetheless. Definitely recommended!


Here is the link to my very rough notes about this part of the book, including notes on characters and plot. It’s mostly for me, but if you had read it in the past and just need a refresher, it would suffice, though it doesn’t read nicely!


Hope you enjoy this foray into the world of Anita Blake! What else are you reading? Come back later this week for a kinky story! Also going on right now is the FebPhotoFest, so there will be lots of sexy pictures every day!

FINALLY!

I know it’s only been a week since we had sex, but a week is a long time for us. It might be the longest we’ve gone without sex since we got together, but I could be wrong. In any case, I was very, *very* happy that we got to have a good time together today! Here’s a picture of the aftermath. Yum!

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The Insecure Writer’s Support Group #IWSG

The Insecure Writer's Support Group

If you’d like to chime in and let us know your answers to the questions or drop a link to your post if you’re participating, please do so in the comments! And check out the IWSG website for more answers!

February 5 question – Is there a story or book you’ve written you want to/wish you could go back and change?

Jayden: Oh yeah. I wrote an entire novel called Slave. The main character never gets a name. I like the story, but the term is…not good. It was the first novel I ever published, and I was proud of it. I would like to go back and edit it. Maybe call it Slut instead.

Funny enough, the book cover is a picture of me with the title on a collar I’m wearing… a collar that says SLUT on it, but I photoshopped to say SLAVE instead. I’m sure the original file is around here somewhere…

Drop a link to your IWSG post in the comments so we can come check it out!

TMI Tuesday: February 4th

The author of TMI Tuesday has decided to end her reign, but we have decided to continue on, going back to the archives. We’re going to continue with 2013, but we’re almost done! So here we are with an archived set of questions.


TMI Tuesday: November 26, 2013

Posted on November 25, 2013 by TMI Tuesday blog

Yes, that’s correct there is no method to my madness with this week’s TMI Tuesday questions. I like them, that is why they are there 🙂

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1. If you had to be trapped inside a movie for 5 days, which movie would you pick?

Jayden: Hmm, something sexy, but I don’t know what. Maybe Baby Girl (which just came out). It was a fun one.

Richard: Groundhog Day, so I could Groundhog Day, but only have to do it for five days. (Or would it be infinity+4?)

2. Who is starring in the movie of your life?

Jayden: Hm, Drew Barrymore?

Richard: ME!

3. What is your favorite curse word?

Jayden: Fuck.

Richard: Shazbot.

4. What word or phrase do you say most often during sex?

Jayden: I don’t say a lot of words, mostly just moaning.

Richard: I dunno, ask Jayden.

Jayden: Richard has a lot of variety in what he says, but he probably asks me how it feels more than anything else.

5. What word or phrase are you tired of hearing during sex?

Jayden: I can’t think of anything. Talk to me, baby.

Richard: “Cramp!”

6. What word or phrase do you like to hear during sex?

Jayden: “Good girl.”

Richard: “Please cum.”

Bonus:  Which sex profession would you attempt? You must pick one. Tell us why you made that choice.
a. porn movie actor
b. phone sex operator
c. escort/call-girl/giggolo
d. prostitute
e. stripper

Jayden: A. I like being watched, but it makes me embarrassed. 

Richard: B sounds fun. And I could probably do other stuff while I worked.


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February 3rd!

I’m still not allowed to have sex (doctor’s orders), but that doesn’t mean we can’t have a little fun. Richard and I enjoyed an afternoon of me going down on him and him fucking my tits until he came in my mouth. Delicious appetizer! I swallowed it all like a greedy slut, so no fun picture there, but here’s me after I got (mostly) redressed. His cock fits perfectly right in there!

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February 2nd!

Yesterday (whoops, I got sidetracked and forgot to post), I finished Camera Shy! It was SOOO good. I talked about it in my last post, but here’s a picture of me reading it, with my bare thigh peeking out. And yes, I would totally do this day over again!

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February already!

Time sure is flying. I’ve heard a lot of people saying that January has [insert some ridiculously high number of days here], but that’s not how I’m feeling. I can’t believe it’s February 1st. In fact, my husband’s car inspection (due yesterday) isn’t done. Whoopsie! Good thing we have two cars and only use one most days. We have the appointment scheduled for next week, but yeah. Time flies!

I found out today about the FebPhotoFest! It sounds familiar. I’m sure some of the blogs I follow have done it in the past, but since it’s the first and I had already written this post, I’m going to jump in! Hope my Kinky drink suffices for Day 1!

I’ve gotten a bit off track with my Anita Blake read through. Remember my initial story about how every time I want to read the series, I start back at book one, but I never make it all the way through. To my credit, there are over 30 novels and they’re still coming out. I spent a lot of time over the summer reading them, backlogging my posts. But then I got to a point where I was caught up… and I’m still trying to push in my book club books and life is busy and… well, I’m behind. BUT. I’m not giving up. I am, however, going to bring you a bonus book, not very kinky, but very sexy that Richard bought me for Christmas. It’s wonderful and I can’t put it down. It’s called Camera Shy by Kay Cove. I’m thrilled to discover (literally as I went to get the link for this post) that it’s the first of a series!

Reading romance that’s body positive about a woman who does not look like a model is wonderful. Richard selected it carefully, recognizing my own body image issues. He finds me beautiful. Actually, really does, and he tells me that all the time. Of course four years into our relationship, things aren’t as hot and heavy as they once were, but we find time to connect, and he still tells me how he feels about me and how pretty I look. The book was a good choice, Richard (who rarely actually reads my blog even though he helps me write it sometimes, haha). And I love you. ❤

So tonight, CHEERS TO A NEW MONTH!

I mixed some cranberry, orange, and pineapple juices with this Kinky drink some friends got me. It was a delightful toast to a new month. And at least *something* in my life can be kinky this week. Due to a planned medical procedure, I’m not allowed to have penetration for five days. Day 2 done, but I suspect we’re going to find some other kinky things we can do without penetration soon. I’m dying here!

What are you looking forward to this month?

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