Eventually Ever After: Part 7

by Jayden

Welcome to my story. One of the real stories about Richard and me. Click here to go back to the beginning of Eventually Ever After.


Before I had come over for the day, we had made a plan. The plan was to have a quickie and then get our work done. But when he touched me, and when he kissed me, I stopped caring about being productive. I just wanted to be with him.

“I’m going to drink the rest of this iced tea, and then we can go in the bedroom,” he said.

I was jittery. So jittery. “That sounds good,” I said. I wasn’t sure what else to say. Despite the fact that I write about sex all the time and we had been roleplaying sexual encounters online for a week, I was embarrassed to talk dirty to him. Super embarrassed to say anything, to call him Sir out loud, even though I had done it once or twice on the phone already, and I did it in text all the time.

But could I do it in person?

I was about to find out.

Waiting for him to finish his drink was torture. Watching him sip at it slowly, talking about completely normal things. I wanted him to hurry up and finish the drink, but I was so nervous. We had talked about so many things, so many options. The thing that stuck out the most to me was that he wanted to fuck my ass. It was the first thing he wanted from me.

And here’s the thing. It had been a really long time since someone had been in my ass. Once upon a time, I had been using plugs to keep my ass nice and ready, but that time had long passed. My husband Nick and I had previously agreed no one else could fuck my ass, which was fine with me because I didn’t really like it anyway. It was hot in theory, but I didn’t love it in practice.

And Nick hadn’t shown any particular interest, so I was sure my ass was going to be very tight. On top of that, I had a feeling that Richard could last a long time. And then what? Would it hurt a lot? Would it just get worse and worse as time went on?

I had spent the previous 24 hours trying to stretch my ass out for him, fingering it, even using a small plug, but I knew that it would all pale in comparison to Richard actually fucking my ass. I’ve always said that size isn’t as important as society would want us to believe, but Richard was a fair amount bigger than Nick. And when it came to anal, that size seemed…substantial. I just sat there, equal parts excited and worried. It was intoxicating.

He finished his drink and put the cup on the table. “Let’s go in the bedroom.”

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TMI Tuesday: October 12th, 2021

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Hey, hey, hey, hey…Time to get random again on TMI Tuesday. Why? Because it is fun to know random stuff about you; it can reveal a lot about your personality.

1. Tell us about your sluttiest act ever.

Jayden: Oh jeeze. That’s tough. Maybe sex on the bridge overlooking a highway.

Richard: I went to the park and stomped around in the volleyball sand just so I could send a guy feet pics once. I don’t know if that’s actually that slutty, but it’s interesting at least.

2. Have you ever played air-guitar. . .naked?

Jayden: I don’t know if I’ve ever played air-guitar clothed, so, probably not.

Richard: Probably. I’ve played air-guitar lots of times, and been naked lots of times. I assume there’s some overlap there.

3. To what song do you most like to play air-guitar either clothed or naked?

Jayden: I’m more apt to play air drums. Sorry!

Richard: Don’t Stop Believin’ by Journey

4. Are you good in bed? Why?

Jayden: I don’t know? Richard would have to tell you. I’ve had a fair number of partners and none of them have complained, so I guess I’m decent.

Richard: I think so. Mostly because I give fabulous snuggles.

5. What FEELS Sexy to you–tactile sensation? (Leave sight and taste out of this)

Jayden: Touching my nipples.

Richard: Almost anything touching my thighs. Mmmmm.

Bonus: Write a six word autobiography.

Jayden: I did too much. I’m tired.

Richard: I used my Swiss Army Knife.

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Happy TMI Tuesday!

Coming Out Day!

I wrote this post five years ago to commemorate this day, and I don’t think I can say it any better than I did then. So, here you go. ~Jayden

National Coming Out Day

I have lots of feelings about National Coming Out Day. My personal Facebook page is currently flooded with posts from friends proclaiming who they are: bisexual, pansexual, gay, lesbian, polyamorous, kinky, and on and on. It’s wonderful to see so many friends who are comfortable enough with themselves to share it with the world. One friend remarked, “In case you didn’t know…” I smiled, because I know that she is very out about her relationships. Very Out. And I am happy for her that she can be. I know so many people who are afraid to be out to their coworkers, to their family, to their friends. I know so many people who were disowned from their families because of their sexuality or gender. 

So on National Coming Out Day, I applaud those who can be open about who they are and those who are supportive of those around them. I feel empathy for those who can’t be out for whatever reason. There are many parts of myself that I have to hide because of my day job. I put up with it because I love my job, but I sometimes live in fear of being outed: outed as polyamorous, outed as kinky, outed as an erotic fiction writer. So I hide parts of myself being a pen name, but to you – my friends and (hopefully) fans, I can be true to myself: I am polyamorous, bisexual, kinky, and I write erotic fiction.

I leave you with a paraphrase of a well known quote: Be kind to everyone you meet. You never know what battles they are fighting.

30 Days of Submission and Domination

We’re continuing answering the questions from our list. Check last time’s if you missed them!

Can you feel submissive without a dominant partner? If so, how does your submission express itself? If not, how do you handle your submission or submissive feelings?

Richard: I don’t think so. Since I default to being a Dom, it’s not really a problem.

Jayden: I’m not sure that I’ve been without a dominant partner, since I understood that I was submissive. There have definitely been lulls over the years where my partner wasn’t feeling particularly dominant, and then I did a lot of fantasizing about submission. I give myself tasks to do (which of course is not nearly as much fun), but I definitely missed it when it wasn’t there.

Is there anything about submission (yours or what you see in others) that you question, dislike or repels you? Was there a time you questioned or were resistant to your own submissive feelings?

Richard: I don’t like overly dependent subs. There’s a line between playing needy, pathetic, little, etc. and legit being unable to function, and it’s not sexy when it gets crossed.

Jayden: Within myself, I can’t think of anything. Sometimes I get a little embarrassed thinking about the degrading stuff I do that I love. But then the embarrassment turns me on, so… In others, as Richard said, there’s a line there. Bedroom submission is great, but when someone is dependent on me for literally everything, it’s a big turn off.

Can you feel dominant without a submissive partner? If so, how does your dominance express itself? If not, how do you handle your dominance or dominance feelings?

Richard: I’ve often compared the feeling I get from a good scene to when everything clicks in writing, or when I do well in a difficult game, solve a difficult problem, etc. I don’t know if it’s just all happy chemicals, if it’s all similar from a planning/control perspective, or what. When I don’t have a “real” sub I tend to spend a lot more time on chat sites and the like.

Jayden: I can’t. I lean so far submissive naturally that it takes the right partner to bring out the Domme in me.

Is there anything about dominance (yours or what you see in others) that you question, dislike or repels you? Was there a time you questioned or were resistant to your own dominant feelings?

Richard: Just the general use of dominance for cover for assholish or abusive behavior. There were definitely times when I felt guilty about being a Dom when I was much younger, like sixteen or seventeen, but I think that’s the only time.

Jayden: Exactly what Richard said. There are so many abusive “doms” who either use it as a cover or just don’t understand the difference. I remember when a friend was looking for a Dom, she had a hell of a time with it.

We’d love to hear your answers! Feel free to answer some/all in the comments or give us links to your blog if you answered them there!

Eventually Ever After: Part 6

by Jayden

Welcome to my story. One of the real stories about Richard and me. Click here to go back to the beginning of Eventually Ever After.

It could have been our only day. At the time, I didn’t want it to be our only day together, but it could have been. It could have been the worst decision I’ve ever made or the best decision of my life. I feel like there’s no in-between.

I got in the car first thing in the morning, and I knew that I had about 15 minutes to decide. I could change my mind now, and nothing would happen. But I knew for myself that if I drove in that direction, my course was set. But then again, if I hadn’t been sure about it, I wouldn’t have made the plan or gotten in the car. But I did.

I just had to hope that I wasn’t going to regret it.

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The Insecure Writer’s Support Group #IWSG

The Insecure Writer's Support Group

We’re back for a 7th month of The Insecure Writer’s Support Group, and we’re right on time!

If you’d like to chime in and let us know your answers to the questions or drop a link to your post if you’re participating, please do so in the comments! And check out the IWSG website for more answers!


October 6 question – In your writing, where do you draw the line, with either topics or language?

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TMI Tuesday: October 5th, 2021

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Potpourri of Questions

1. I’m so jealous, I wish I was _____ .

Jayden: Independently wealthy.

Richard: able to take a nap in the shower.

2. When would you seek help from a sex therapist?

Jayden: If the sex weren’t good and everything else was. Or if the sex doesn’t stay good. (I don’t see that happening, but you never know.)

Richard: Sure, we already go to a couple’s therapist.

3. How do you break up with a friend?

Jayden: The same way you break up with a partner, I suppose. I guess I haven’t really had to do a lot of that. I just let things fade. If I don’t pursue the friendship and neither do they, then I guess that’s the answer…

Richard: I don’t think I ever have. I’ve stopped being friends with people, but I don’t remember ever having a specific conversation about it.

4. Give us a tip to turn a bad day around.

Jayden: I like to listen to some upbeat music. That can often put me in a better headspace.

Richard: Go for a walk.

Bonus: Do you feel drowned by social media?

Jayden: Yes. There’s so much of it. It’s impossible to keep up with everything, and I hate to miss what’s going on in my friends’ lives, but I can’t possibly read everyone’s posts.

Richard: Not really. The only one I really use is FB, and I have few enough friends that I can get through most of their posts in like 10 minutes a day.

Kinktober! October 2nd

by guest artist GS

Kinktober day 2: Crossdressing. I get the sense that, even in a world teeming with toxic masculinity, Maurice wouldn’t be averse to playing at being a girl. Cathy would happily switch genders – she’s into performance arts, and she’s not very attached to her own identity. I wouldn’t say she’s nonbinary; more like… flexible. I thought it would be fun to emphasize the clothes here as they let their regular identities fade into the background.

30 Days of Submission and Domination

We’re continuing answering the questions from our list. Check last time’s if you missed them!

How socially connected is your submission? Do you look for others to talk to about your submission for support or networking? Do you go to events or connect through another sort of social grouping either in person or online?

Richard: I have a fair number of D/s friends (and a few mostly vanilla ones that I talk kink with.) I’ve used a variety of kink and kink-adjacent websites, chat rooms etc., and have made some lasting friends there. I’ve been to munches, etc. in the past, and would like to start going again.

Jayden: And hey, we did that! We went to one munch so far in our local area, and we’ll probably go to more. I am excited because I have now met another submissive who I have formed a good friendship with. It’s so, so nice to be able to talk about kinky things and not have people look at you strangely. When you say things like, “He choked me last and it was so fucking hot!” or “Look at this bruise!” We were just remarking the other day at a dinner party that it was fun to be at a dinner party where it was totally acceptable for me to whip out my chest to show off a bruise.

In general, my submission had a behind-closed-doors feel to it, but I am really glad to say that that is no longer the case. I am excited to be more social about it and connect with other kinky people.

Is there a physical position that makes you feel most submissive?

Richard: Being tied up makes me squirmy and bratty.

Jayden: Kneeling is generally a good one. Anything that puts me physically below my Dom (though I’m short, so that’s most of the time anyway). And, as Richard said, tie me up!

How socially connected is your dominance? Do you look for others to talk to about your dominance for support or networking? Do you go to events or connect through another sort of social grouping either in person or online?

Richard: It comes and goes. I like to have kinky friends to talk about these sorts of things with. I have a handful of good friends who are generally involved in kink, so I usually have at least a few to talk to. One of our friends recently got involved in a new relationship that’s significantly kinkier than most of his prior ones, so it’s nice to talk to him and his new partner about it. I don’t really like to go to kink events solo, but if I have a partner it’s fun to go out. More rarely I’ll go with a friend.

Jayden: I haven’t been dominant enough to have any kind of support or networking. I guess you could say that for a brief time, I was being dominant in text with a sub and Richard was coaching me through it. That was definitely helpful.

Is there a physical position that makes you feel most dominant?

Richard: Putting my sub in a face down-ass up position is good. And of course, you can’t beat having someone kneeling at your feet.

Jayden: (For the record, I didn’t read Richard’s dominant responses before I wrote my own submissive ones. Yeah, we’re on the same page almost all the time…) As a Domme, having someone kneel at my feet, especially someone who is usually taller than me is hot. I like it when they have that pleading look in their eye. It makes me feel powerful.

We’d love to hear your answers! Feel free to answer some/all in the comments or give us links to your blog if you answered them there!

Kinktober! Intro

Hello! We have a brand new feature for this year’s Kinktober! A friend of mine was looking for somewhere to share their kinky art, and I offered to host it here on my blog. We’ll keep going with some of our regular posts (TMI Tuesday and Eventually Ever After) and you should get some Kinktober posts from Richard and I as well. So buckle up! After being sporadic with our posts in September, we’ll be making multiple posts some days!

~Jayden


I’m GS and I make a webcomic called Alien Romance. It’s about two people – Maurice and Cathy – with almost nothing in common, not even a language, who decide to make a go of it. This Kinktober, I’m letting my characters explore their sexual options, mostly with each other, although there are some supporting characters who may also appear.

Usually my scenes are 1-5 full pages long, but this time I plan to do just one or two panels per prompt, and they will be cute.

But please note that my characters are in their mid-20’s. They look a lot younger, but that’s on purpose. I’ve lived for three years in Vietnam, and 4 years in China, and the men here run the gamut from sweet femme bois to hardened bodybuilders. But they are very rarely large people – most of them, by Western standards, are quite diminutive. Immigrants may arrive from these areas and discover that they can’t compete with the social standards of physical appearance in their new communities. In fact, the idea that East Asian men have racial features that are not sexually appealing enough is an ugly trope.

Maurice is a Vietnamese American who grew up in the homogeneous heartland. Cathy is French, and should have enjoyed a life of privilege, but some invisible disabilities and serendipitous misfortunes have landed her in the United States. It’s a story celebrating nonstandard beauty, reclaiming your desirability when it’s been taken away from you, and the joys of being an alien.

Eventually Ever After: Part 5

by Jayden

Click here to go back to the beginning of Eventually Ever After.

We spent the next week trying to figure out what the hell we were going to do about everything. We were developing feelings for each other, and now that we had acknowledged that, they were moving quickly. But we hadn’t had sex yet. And that was driving me crazy.

One of the days Richard came over to my house, he said, “You know, I think we should wait until after Thanksgiving to have sex.”

I wanted to be okay with it, but… He whispered to me so that no one else could hear, “You aren’t used to being told no, are you?”

I shook my head. I wasn’t. I generally got what I wanted, and I liked it that way. Richard was going to be an interesting challenge.

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TMI Tuesday: September 28th, 2021

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1. What is the most expensive thing you have purchased that was not worth the price?

Jayden: My car. UGH. I just put over $3000 into it and it’s not even worth that much.

Richard: Vacations to Disney. Thousands of dollars to stand in line, and experience the worst customer service in the world.

2. Has money ever ruined a relationship for you?

Jayden: Nope. I’ve always been open about finances and I don’t like to “keep score.”

Richard: It has not.

3. What is a cheap thing you own that just makes you SO happy?

Jayden: My laminator!

Richard: My Swiss Army Knife. The little ones cost like $15 and I use it every day.

4. What is the most toxic quality about you?

Jayden: I can be kind of jealous…

Richard: Pushing people away when I’m mad at myself.

5. Why do you not like to talk about money?

Jayden: I don’t mind talking about money.

Richard: Long standing societal taboos designed to maintain the patriarchy/bourgeoisie.

Bonus: What is the craziest thing you have done for love?

Jayden: Uhh. I have no idea. Moved in with someone I hadn’t been dating long?

Richard: I flew to Minnesota to see someone I never met once. They totally could’ve just wanted my skin for their skin suit.

TMI Tuesday: September 14th, 2021

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You know what to do…it’s TMI Tuesday!

1. Tell us about the 3 most enjoyable moments in your life.

Jayden: I don’t even know how to answer this question. I feel like it’s a trick. I’m supposed to say things like, “They day my daughter was born,”. But that was a terrrrrible day. So, whatever. I have had many times in my life that I couldn’t believe how lucky I was, and some of those moments are recent. But that’s all you get because ‘enjoyable’ is so relative.

2. What was your most enjoyable moment in 2020?

Jayden: Meeting Richard, not the moment we met specifically, but the connection we formed over time. It wasn’t what I expected, but it worked out in the end.

3. Would you rather have the ability to see 10 minutes into the future or 10 years into the future?

Jayden: 10 years. I’m such a planner, and I am constantly worried that I’m not doing the right thing for my future. (Also, 10 years ago me *would not* believe what I’m doing right now. Hell, one year ago me wouldn’t have believed it.

4. Would you rather find true love today or win the lottery next year?

Jayden: Win the lottery next year. I already found true love. 😛 But if I hadn’t found love, I’d pick love over lottery any day.

5. What pursuits bring you the most joy?

Jayden: Doing things for others. [Insert pithy joke about being a submissive.]

Bonus: Who can you help today?

Jayden: I help so many people every day. It’s part of my job. So, this evening, I’m helping myself and my family to get more settled into our home.

30 Days of Submission and Domination

We’re continuing answering the questions from our list. Check last week’s if you missed them!

What does trust mean to you in the context of submission?

Richard: Trusting my Dominant to set up a scene that we can both enjoy, be safe, etc.

Jayden: Being able to let go and trust in my Dominant is most of what makes it alluring to me. Knowing that he (or she) will take care of me, push me right to the edge, and be there to hold me when it’s over is the deepest trust.

Very often the stereotype of submission is that the submissive person loses the ability to have an opinion. While that clearly isn’t true except in the absolute rarest of occasions, how does communication factor into your submission and how do you communicate your desires and needs?

Richard: I’m a very chatty sub, I think it’s nervous energy. I’m perfectly willing to beg and whine for what I want/need. If I don’t get it, sometimes I switch back into Dom space and take it anyway.

Jayden: When I get into that submissive headspace, I find it very hard to have an opinion. I just want to please my Dom. I don’t care about anything else. I get off on his pleasure. So it’s hard to express anything for me. If I need to, I will. And often Richard asks what I want. Usually my answer is something along the lines of, “Whatever you want, Sir.” And I mean that. 100%.

What does trust mean to you in the context of domination?

Richard: That I’ll take care of my submissive and make sure they’re safe, limits are respected, that sort of thing.

Jayden: Having someone put their trust in me to protect them and respect their limits in a kinky scene is a lot of responsibility. It’s also the reason I am not great at taking on long-term submissives.

Very often the stereotype of dominance is that the dominant person gets anything they want, without regard for the sub. While that clearly isn’t true except in the absolute rarest of occasions, how does communication factor into your dominance and how do you communicate with your sub?

Richard: Jayden and I both like doing questionnaires, checklists, etc. so we’ve done quite a few of those to help get a feel for where we both feel on certain kinks. We try to pick a few kinks, questions, etc. and talk about them when we go for a walk, drive, etc. Sometimes, we both write out our answers ahead of time and swap them to help make sure we’re giving an honest one.

Jayden: As a Domme, I love the questionnaires and checklists Richard mentioned. And although I like being dominant from time to time, I’m usually doing it to fulfil someone else’s desires. That’s the core of all of my kink. So finding out what they are interested in ahead of time is crucial for me.

We’d love to hear your answers! Feel free to answer some/all in the comments or give us links to your blog if you answered them there!