Theme Reveal #AtoZChallenge

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Welcome to my A to Z Blog for 2018! I am so excited to share my newest project with you. Those of you who read last year, know that YOU got to participate in my Choose Your Own Erotic Adventure (Runaway), which I published at the end of April. I had so much fun with it, but I wanted to do something a little different this year.

Throughout the month of April, I will post the opening scene to 26 different stories in various romantic/erotic genres. Then in May I’ll post the next scene for the top four stories. In June I’ll post the third scene for the two favorites from those. And in July (for Camp NaNoWriMo) I’ll write the full novel of the favorite with a plan to publish before November.

All I need from you is your votes. Tell me which ones you like the best by commenting, voting, or filling out the Google Forms I post every Sunday. If you fill out the Google Form(s), you can enter into a drawing for a free ebook once I publish! All of the forms for April will be closed on May 7th.

If you need a visual map of my plan, here it is!

A to Z 2018

I’m looking forward to hearing from you all and reading your blogs! Thanks for checking out my blog. Don’t forget to follow me on Facebook, Twitter, and Goodreads. If you’re interested in reading more, check out my Choose Your Own Erotic Adventure: Runaway or my debut BDSM Erotic Novel: Slave.

The Greatest Showman #ThisIsMe

I have seen the movie The Greatest Showman in theaters three times. Three times. That’s a lot, especially for me. I couldn’t even tell you the number of times I have listened to the soundtrack. Every time it gets quiet for more than 30 seconds, I find myself turning on the soundtrack. I know that I will be in the store purchasing the DVD/Blu Ray the day it is released. I have not been that obsessed with a movie… ever.

Before you think that this is just a random movie review, it’s not. Yes, I loved the movie. Yes, I think you should go out and see it. Yes, I think you should buy the soundtrack. But that’s not at all what this is about.

This is about a message. A message of love and acceptance that I think needs to be heard. Here is my favorite quote from the movie:

“You are putting folks of all kinds on stage with you — all colors, shapes, sizes — presenting them as equals. Another critic might have called it a celebration of humanity.”

This quote resonates with me in a way that very little ever has. I have never quite felt like I belonged to any one particular group. Going back to elementary school, I had friends, but I wasn’t in one of those stereotypical groups. Right into adulthood, I just never felt quite like I belonged.

But I feel like I finally found my place in my local writing group. It’s a place where I really, truly belong. A place where my quirks are celebrated. A place where my weight doesn’t matter. A place where I can be my polyamorous, kinky self.

This simple fact is what drew me to writing in the first place. I can be me, completely and wholly. I can express myself in fantasy in any way I want. I choose to self-publish so that I can write whatever I want, whenever I want.

I urge you as readers and writers to support each other. Look past our differences, whether it’s color, shape, or size, and show your support for your fellow bloggers/writers, because of our differences, not in spite of them. So I encourage you to go out, read a new blog, learn something new, experience something different, and above all, be open and accepting of one another.


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Happy New Year! #amwriting #85k90

I am not a big New Year’s Resolution person, but regardless, I am going to take this opportunity to resolve to use my blog (and accompanying social media) more this year! Feel free to ask me questions, let me know what content you would like to see her, etc.

I was happy to round out the year and begin the new with two short stories. It felt good to be back in the proverbial saddle after taking December off to recover from NaNoWriMo.

In the end, I wrote 100,005 words in November, and I am only about halfway done with the novel. It will be another Choose Your Own Adventure, and I hope to have it out in 2018. But, I am turning my attention to a project I started back in July and worked on up through October: My A to Z Challenge posts! I am so excited for that project, but you’ll have to wait a little longer to hear all about it! What I will tell you is that there will be voting and reader participation like there was last year!*

Lastly, I just found out about another writing challenge to participate in called the 85k90 (85,000 words in 90 days). It started January 1st, and I found out on December 30th. But I jumped in with both feet and so far have written 4522 words of fiction since the 1st!

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*If you didn’t see my A to Z Challenge from 2017, I definitely recommend checking it out! There’s a link at the top of the page. It’s one iteration of my Erotic Choose Your Own Adventure called Runaway (available on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Smashwords)

Reminiscing [BDSM Erotic Fiction]

Trigger Warning: Reluctant Consent


We all have that one relationship, sometimes more, that we regret. We look back on it and go, “What the hell was I thinking?” For me, it was my college boyfriend. I dated several guys my freshman year, but sophomore year, I ended up with a guy who was super controlling and domineering. We dated right up until the end of my senior year. He didn’t like where I was going with my life (and he was cheating on me), so he dumped me, five minutes before graduation started. It was heartbreaking. My whole family was there to witness it, too. It was a college version of that scene at the beginning of Eurotrip, except my boyfriend was dumping me.

But I had moved on from that. Tomorrow was my 30th birthday, and I was looking forward to starting a new decade. Leave the old behind, bring on the new and all that jazz. I was single, I was living in Boston, and I had good friends to celebrate with. Even though we lived in the city, they wanted me to have a spectacular time, so they had booked us a room in an old hotel right near the center of Boston. It overlooked Boston Common, and it was beautiful, though some said the rooms were haunted. I had stayed at this hotel only once before in my life, on the eve of my 21st birthday, courtesy of my terrible college boyfriend, Richard. He had taken me to a show nearby and booked us a room. Sometimes he had been quite the romantic. But thinking back on that night nine years before, I only had vague recollections of why I had dated him so long. Generous nights like that one were part of it, but I knew there must have been more. The memory was too fuzzy to really identify.

I laid down on the plush queen-sized bed and reminisced. Even though I hadn’t had a guy who I really connected with lately, I was pretty lucky. Of course, what I really missed was a good orgasm delivered by someone other than my Battery Operated Boyfriend. I drifted off to sleep thinking of Richard and college and the wild nights we used to have.

I woke up to a beeping alarm that didn’t sound like my own. It sounded like an alarm from a far-off dream. Why had I set the alarm? I wasn’t supposed to. It was my birthday. I was allowed to sleep in on my birthday. I rolled over to turn off the alarm and encountered a warm body. Panic filled me. A cold chill that went from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. I couldn’t see the stranger in my bed. No, not my bed. Where I was I? The hotel. I remembered that. The warm body was entirely wrapped up in the blanket, just like Richard had always done. And then the covers were tossed aside as the figure grumbled and rolled over and it was Richard! Oh my god, it was Richard in the flesh. He looked just the same as he had the last time I had seen him. There were no signs that he had aged at all. I couldn’t believe it. I knew that I looked completely different. My hair was shorter, I had gained weight, and I had crow’s feet around the corners of my eyes. But Richard looked exactly the same. What the hell was he doing here? I hadn’t seen him in years!

He was mumbling something as he woke from sleep, but I couldn’t make it out. I rolled off the bed and got to my feet. I looked down at my body, and I was naked. And thin. I couldn’t make sense of it. I escaped to the adjoining bathroom and shut the door. I took a deep breath and tried to figure out what was going on. Why was Richard here? Had I gotten drunk last night? I hadn’t remembered drinking at all much less drinking enough to have invited Richard back to my room. I couldn’t imagine what was going on. I braced my hands on the edge of the marble counter and looked at my hands. They looked different. I wasn’t wearing any jewelry. I took a steadying breath and looked in the mirror. There were no crow’s feet around my eyes, and my hair was long again. I blinked at my reflection and came to the reluctant realization that I wasn’t 30 anymore; I was reliving my 21st birthday.


By the time I was done washing up, Richard was knocking on the door. “Lina, are you okay?” he called.

“I’m fine,” I called back, my voice shaking.

He didn’t respond, and I breathed a sigh of relief. I tried to remember all the things that had happened that day but nine years was a long time to think back. I steeled myself to face Richard and opened the bathroom door.

“About time,” he grumbled and practically pushed past me to get into the bathroom. I had forgotten how gruff he could be.

I listened as he ran water and washed up. My mind felt like it was frozen. I had pushed so hard to remember the past that now I couldn’t even think about what I was going to do when Richard came out of the bathroom.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, looking at me just standing there.

Both of us were completely nude, and it was his nudity that shocked me into responding. “Nothing,” I said and put on a fake smile.

“Good,” he said. “Happy birthday.”

“Thank you,” I said. Richard leaned down to me and kissed me, angling his mouth against mine forcefully. I melted against him, my breasts pressing against his chest. He was warm and hard, and I felt my pussy clench with desire for him. This is what I had forgotten about him. This is why I had stayed with him so long. He was exactly what I wanted and needed in the bedroom. “So,” I said, breathlessly, “what are the plans for today?”

“I already told you it was a surprise,” he growled.

“Right, sorry,” I apologized immediately.

“But before we go anywhere, I want to fuck you.”

My pussy clenched again. He was commanding, but I loved it. I nodded, even though I knew that his statement didn’t really require a response. He practically picked me up off my feet and deposited me on the bed. I spread my legs to him, and I could feel that my pussy was slick and ready for him. He slid his cock right into me, and I shuddered. He was bigger than any other guy I had been with, thick and long. He filled me so completely. I wrapped my legs around him to give him better access, and he pounded into me. I had no preparation for him, and I expected that I would be too tight, but then I realized that this wasn’t my 30-year-old pussy that had been barren for the last few months, this was my 21-year-old body that was used to having sex with Richard almost daily. My body accommodated him easily, and I felt my orgasm building.

This was something I hadn’t experienced in years. I had forgotten how much an orgasm from Richard would build. If he stopped, I thought I would die. “Richard,” I gasped out, “don’t stop, please don’t stop.” He didn’t respond, but he seemed to fuck me with more forcefulness than before. My memories were coming back, and I remembered that he liked to feel in control. He liked to feel like he was the one I was orgasming for, and of course, he was. “I’m going to cum for you,” I panted.

He shoved his cock into me harder, his pace quickening. With my arms wrapped around his back, I felt his muscles contracting. I knew that he was getting close to orgasm himself. I felt my orgasm rise and peak.

“Oh god,” I screamed, “Richard, I’m cumming!” Wave after wave of intense orgasm washed over me. I clenched around him, and I saw that he was steeling himself to keep from orgasming himself.

He pulled out of me and straddled my body. I had forgotten how quickly he could move. And then he was pumping his cock with his fist right in my face. I knew what he wanted, and he was going to have it. I opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out, watching his face closely. He loved to cum all over my face. It turned him on to watch me lick it up afterward, too. As I saw his eyes squeeze shut and heard his breathing alter, I knew that he was close and I closed my eyes.

I felt the first bit of cum hit my tongue and I braced myself as the rest came. He coated my lips, tongue, and cheeks. When he finished, he rubbed the head of his cock against my tongue, and I licked him greedily. I felt so degraded by having him cum on me like that, and I loved it. No one else had made me feel this degraded ever in my life. At 30, I had spent years dealing with those feelings and figuring out how to handle that, but at 21, I couldn’t process those feelings and desires. So I just let Richard do what he wanted and didn’t complain. I licked my lips and as far around my mouth as I could. He watched me with rapt attention. Then I used my finger to wipe up the rest of his cum and then sucked my fingers clean. When I finished, he leaned down and kissed the tip of my nose, then got off of me. I slipped off the bed quietly and went to the bathroom to wash my face.

When I came back, Richard was laying on his back, his cock already semi-hard again. Virile 21-year-olds had their perks! I moved to the bed and stood looking down at him.

“Hi, beautiful,” he said.

“Hi, handsome,” I replied.

“Climb on,” he said. I climbed onto the bed, straddling him, my wet slit sliding across his semi-hard cock. He reached up with both hands and pinched my nipples hard. I moaned and arched my back.

“Oh, god,” I groaned. I wanted Richard to be hard and fuck me again. He pinched harder. I moaned louder. Every pinch felt like a shot of fire straight to my pussy. After a little while, he abandoned my nipples, and one hand moved down between my thighs. His thumb found my clit easily, and he rubbed it. I groaned and rocked back and forth. “Oh, please, Richard, make me cum!” I cried.

He kept rubbing, and I kept rocking, and before I knew it, his cock was hard again. I shifted my hips enough that he could slide inside me. He began to fuck me, and the feeling of being filled by him along with his thumb on my clit pushed me over the edge again.

“I’m cumming, Richard; I’m cumming for you!” I was gasping and writhing as he fucked me, but he wouldn’t move his thumb off my clit. He kept pressing against it, and I wanted him to leave it alone. I was so overstimulated. But he wouldn’t stop until I was a blubbering mess, soaked in my own juices, and probably his. My hands gripped at the blankets, anything I could get my hands on. It was all I could do not to push him away, but I had done that once, and the results were unsatisfying. The details were fuzzy, but I definitely remember a night of being denied orgasm because I had pushed him off before he was ready to be done. It had been hot as hell, and I almost hadn’t regretted it, but I wanted the orgasms. It had been so long since I had been with a guy who would really get me off, and I wasn’t about to jeopardize that.

He rubbed my clit, and I was already quivering, and my pussy was clenching, but he fucked me anyway. Even from the bottom, he was able to thrust his hips upward and fuck me. It felt amazing. I was overwhelmed. If I hadn’t been gripping the blankets, I probably would have just fallen over, but that gave me enough balance to stay upright as he fucked me.

My orgasm had subsided enough that his thumb on my clit wasn’t driving me completely crazy. His cock felt so good inside me. I wanted this feeling to last forever. “Oh Richard,” I gasped out, “you feel amazing.” He fucked me harder, and I continued stroking his ego. “Richard, god, you are incredible. Your hard cock feels so good.” I moaned and bit my lip. “You know just how to touch me.” Every word I said caused him to thrust harder into me until I was pretty sure he couldn’t fuck me any harder.

I knew for sure he had reached the fastest he could fuck me when his thumb left my clit, and he stood up off the bed holding me against him. I had forgotten how strong he was. He picked me up like I was a rag doll. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held on, but I definitely felt him slide even deeper inside me. He bounced me up and down on his cock, and the angle felt better than any other. I knew that another orgasm was building, but I wasn’t sure if he would cum first. And honestly, I didn’t care. This had been the best sex I had had since… well, since I had actually been 21 and had been dating Richard.

Less than a year after this day, Richard would be breaking my heart in front of my family. I tried hard to push the thought aside, but a little bit of my good feeling slipped away.

“Cum for me,” he directed, and I felt my pussy spasm despite my melancholy thoughts. When Richard took control of me, I always melted for him. It just felt so right.

He thrust into me over and over, and I felt the orgasm building, but not quickly enough.

“Cum for me,” he directed again.

I wanted to yell that I was trying, but I swallowed the words. I grunted and moaned, and then I felt Richard release inside me. His body tensed, his arms wrapped around me tightened. And when he had cum, we both collapsed onto the bed. He pulled me into his arms, and whispered against my hair, “Happy birthday, baby.”

“Thank you,” I whispered back.

He seemed to drift off for a bit, and I lay there with my head propped up on my hand, looking down at him. It was setting in that I wasn’t in my time. I was nine years earlier and what the hell was I going to do about that?


Half an hour later, I was still laying there staring down at Richard, and he was drifting between asleep and awake. It was surreal. After half an hour of intense thought, I couldn’t come up with any way to go back to my own time. Maybe sleeping would do it. But even if it did, I had a whole day to get through. I tried so hard to remember what had happened on my 21st birthday, but I suspected there was too much alcohol for me to have any real clear thoughts.

I was conflicted. On one hand, I should dump Richard’s sorry ass now before he would have a chance to dump me at graduation. On the other hand, how much would it change my future if I broke up with Richard early? And if it did alter my future, would it change it in a good way or a bad way? There was absolutely no way to be sure. But since I couldn’t remember what happened, it seemed likely I was going to fuck it up anyhow, so I might as well do whatever I wanted. Maybe this was all a dream anyway.

“Hey, baby,” he said when he woke up. “Are you okay?” he asked.

“Yep, I’m good,” I lied.

“Good,” he said.

I wanted to ask what he had planned, but he had been clear already that he had planned a surprise, and I didn’t want to push him any further. So I just waited out the silence until he said something.

“I want to fuck your throat,” he said.

Typical Richard, I thought, but I didn’t voice the thought. Instead, I nodded.

“Get on your knees,” he directed, and I slid off the bed and did as he told.

He came up to me then, pressing his cock to my lips. He was already hard. I opened my mouth to him, and he pushed inside. He was bigger than I remembered, but my body handled him instinctively. He gathered my hair up into a makeshift ponytail that he held in one hand as he began to fuck my mouth. I remembered how this was very different than giving a blowjob. He was in charge, and he would not let me forget it.

Pressing his cock against the back of my throat, he twisted the hair in his hand until it was just a touch painful. I felt my pussy spasm at the thrill of the pain and loss of control. Then he started to move, holding my head still and thrusting his hips. I gagged periodically and felt my eyes water, but I didn’t protest, and I felt my pussy getting wetter and wetter as he fucked my throat.

“Take it all, my little slut,” he grunted. I was momentarily shocked, and then I remembered that this was normal for Richard. It was how he had always talked to me. “I want your ass next,” he said.

I don’t think he was actually talking to me. He certainly wasn’t asking permission, just stating his desires as though I would give it to him unconditionally. The truth was, I wanted him to fuck my ass. I didn’t crave anal sex often, but once in a while it was excellent, and it had been quite a long time for 30-year-old-me. I decided that I was going to let him, and then after that, I might have had all I could stand of his bullshit.

He pulled my head back by my hair until I was bent back enough that his cock popped out of my mouth, slick with my saliva. “Up on the bed,” he said and let me go.

I climbed up on the bed and wiggled my ass in the air at him. He slapped it hard, and I moaned in response. My pussy was so wet I was sure I would drip on the bed. He pulled me so that I was right on the edge of the bed and he was standing behind me. He slid his cock along my slit until it was coated with my juices, too, and then he was pressing against my puckered hole.

I had a moment of apprehension that he hadn’t done anything to prepare my ass for his cock, but then I remembered that this was 21-year-old-me. When I was dating Richard, I kept my ass ready for him all the time. He slid his cock into me slowly, letting me adjust. I moaned lightly as he first entered, and by the time he had pushed all the way in, I was panting heavily. It wasn’t totally painless, but it wasn’t what I had feared. I had forgotten how much I loved feeling so full. The sensations were completely different. He fucked me slowly at first, being gentle with me. This was the Richard I remembered fondly. He gradually increased his pace until he was fucking my ass almost as quickly as he had been fucking my pussy earlier and my throat most recently. I panted and moaned, slipping my hand underneath me without him noticing. I began to play with my clit, and I felt my orgasm build almost instantly. I slowed down, wanting to cum at the same time he did. I got myself right to the edge and then backed off until I thought I could handle a little more stimulation.

After cumming so many times this morning, Richard was taking his time getting close to orgasm. I thought I was going to go insane with need before I felt him grip my ass with his fingers hard and start grunting. “Oh yeah,” he groaned.

“Fill my ass with your cum, please!” I cried out as I rubbed my clit hard and fast and fell over the cliff into orgasm. As my pussy and ass clenched in orgasm, I felt him spasm inside me and begin to fill my ass with cum.

I collapsed onto the bed in front of him, and he collapsed on top of me. “Good girl,” he murmured, stroking my hair lightly.

After a minute or two, he got up and went into the bathroom. I sat on the bed, trying to figure out what to do, and then I made up my mind. I stood up from the bed and got dressed, finding my clothes scattered around the room where I must have dropped them the night before. I could feel Richard’s cum in my ass still, and it turned me on to know that I was about to dump him with an ass full of his cum. But I didn’t care what the consequences were. I was done with him and his bullshit. I wasn’t going to let him run my life anymore. With that resolved in my mind, I smiled to myself as I waited for Richard.


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Hotel [BDSM Erotic Fiction]

I took a deep breath. I was so nervous that I could swear the hotel clerk could hear my heart beating in my throat. But she was smiling at me as though nothing were odd about my request for a room with a king-sized bed. But from her perspective, there wasn’t anything odd about it. I was just a woman on my own who wanted a big bed. She asked how many keys, and I hesitated. I needed to say two keys. But would that be weird to be on my own asking for two keys? But before I could second guess myself further, she said, “I’ll give you two keys.” I nodded appreciatively and swallowed over the lump in my throat.

“There you go, Ms. Jersey,” she said. I wasn’t sure if she believed that it was my last name, but since I had paid in cash and given a $200 cash deposit to ensure I didn’t need a credit card, she didn’t question it.

It wasn’t my last name. My real last name was Sherman. And my first name was Carly. I had actually given her my real first name at least. I hoped that it would cut down on confusion by using my actual first name. But honestly, I hoped that the hotel clerk would be the only employee I would come in contact with during my brief stay.

I was doing something I had never done in my life. Something I had thought I would never do. Something that, if you had asked me five years ago if I would do it, I would have laughed in your face at the absurdity of it. Yet, here I was doing exactly that, and probably more.

The dating scene had changed a lot over the last five years. Meeting strangers from the internet was a big deal back then, but now it was commonplace. Apps like Tinder and OKCupid and countless others were bringing people together in ways that just didn’t exist then. And when people would meet on the forefathers of dating apps, they would do it in smart ways. They would bring a friend, meet at a crowded restaurant, or at least talk on the phone or on video to get to know the other person. But was I doing any of that? Of course not. I was doing something so dangerous, so risky, and so terribly out of character for me that I hardly believed I was standing in this upscale hotel, getting a room to share with a complete stranger.


I went to the hotel room first, bringing my small suitcase with me. I didn’t have a lot in it, but there were a few things I knew I would need. I had lingerie and the toys my stranger had requested. I couldn’t even think about those things right now.

When I got into the room, I looked around. It was a normal room. A king-sized bed, a big chair, a desk with a chair, and a couple of side tables. There were windows that went almost floor to ceiling. I looked and found that I could see right into the windows of the next tower. The sun was just setting, and I could see right into the rooms of people who had their shades open and their lights on. I knew that meant they could see me, too, but I knew that my stranger would want the shades open. I did dim the lights as much as I thought I should. I looked at the clock, and I knew I had just under an hour to be ready. I went into the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror for a full minute. Could I really do this? Could I really go through with it? I took a deep breath and made up my mind. I had come this far, and I wasn’t backing down now.

I took the soaps and shampoos and opened them, discarding the seals. I made sure two towels were within reach of the shower. They were details that seemed minor, but I wanted to be able to hop in the shower later and not be fumbling with opening soap. I knew I was wasting too much time in the bathroom and left to go on with my other tasks.

Out in the main room, I pulled out the two keys to the room and double checked to make sure both worked. They did. I left the floor, going down through the lobby, and out to the street. I looked both ways and didn’t see anyone I knew, and felt relief. I found the spot I had been instructed to leave the extra key, and I tucked it away there. I snapped a picture of it and sent it off to the stranger I had been texting with, along with the room number. I took a deep, shuddering breath as I hit send, but knew there was definitely no turning back now.

I hurried back to my room and shut the door. I had to resist my natural urge to deadbolt the door. That would defeat the whole purpose. I quickly took off all my clothes, folding them neatly and putting them into my suitcase. From the suitcase, I pulled out the lingerie. The panties were g-string and so thin that one good tug would pull the fabric apart. The top covered my breasts with light cloth, but my nipples were visible right through it. It had thin straps that would hold it up, and it fell just to my hips. All the fabric was light blue to match my eyes.

I pulled the blankets off the bed so that just the sheet was there. I left the pillows at the top of the bed. I folded the large blankets as neatly as I could and left them in the closet. With the lights dimmed, it seemed as though the room was candlelit. I laid the other items he had requested on the bedside table and then lay down on the bed and closed my eyes. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears, but I tried to focus on what I had been tasked with. Had I done everything he told me to do? I replayed the last hour over in my mind, and I couldn’t think of anything I had forgotten. I rolled toward the nightstand and picked up the items I had placed there earlier.

I slid the remote controlled vibrator into my pussy and pulled the blindfold on so that it was resting on my forehead. I needed my eyes for one last thing before I would pull it down. I picked up the cuffs that I would use to keep my hands bound. They were cuffs that I could slip my hands into and out of, so they weren’t super secure, but they got the point across. I looked above my head and saw that the headboard was solid. No chance to strap them there. My instructions were clear: If I couldn’t strap them to the headboard, I was to bind them behind my back. I slipped my right hand into the cuff and pulled the blindfold down with my left hand. I turned my head all different directions to see if I could peek out. I couldn’t. I put my left hand behind my back and slid it into the cuff. I was all set.


If I could have, I would have physically kicked myself for not looking at the time before I blindfolded myself. But the reality was that I had no sense of time anyway so it wouldn’t have mattered. I found that my heart was still pounding hard in my ears, but I was hardly breathing I was so anxious to hear any little sound. I couldn’t stop my brain from coming up with what-if scenarios. What if the cleaning crew came in? What if I had forgotten to put my phone on silent? What if I got an emergency phone call? What if this was all a big mistake?

But I knew that it wasn’t. I knew deep down in my core that this was what I had been craving. I wanted this complete stranger to lick me, suck me, fuck me. I wanted him to use me, to take advantage of me, and then to leave me. I was ashamed of the desire, but it was there nonetheless.

I waited and waited, and then I heard it, the click of the lock, the turn of the handle, and the footsteps into the room. I hadn’t thought it was possible for my heart to pound harder, but it did. I felt my pussy clench with desire and my own wetness increase tenfold. My legs were spread as I had been instructed and nothing was going to stop me from making a mess on the bed.

He didn’t say a word as he entered and approached me. The first physical indication I had that he was there was when his fingers touched the bottom of my foot. I flinched against my will, but I was so ticklish, I couldn’t help it. He trailed his fingers up the inside of my calf and then my thigh. My clit ached for him to touch it, but he didn’t. Before he reached my slick slit, he trailed his fingers over my hip and up my side. Again I shuddered but tried hard not to move. He moved across my breasts, tweaking my nipples through the fabric as he did. My pussy clenched again, and I arched my back in desire.

His fingers moved up from my breasts then and one hand wrapped around my throat. This was it. If I hadn’t placed my blind trust in a good man, I was in trouble. But he hooked his fingers behind my jawbone like I knew was safe and squeezed gently. I was able to breathe, though my breath came in rasps as he pressed lightly against my throat. “Who do you belong to?” he whispered.

“You,” I whispered back.

He let my neck go and slapped my breasts hard, first my right, then my left. It stung pleasurably. Then he moved away from me. I strained to hear anything, but couldn’t make out the sounds he was making. The vibrator turned on suddenly, and I couldn’t stifle the moan that escaped my throat.

My hips were gyrating as the small vibrator buzzed inside me. I wanted to cum so badly, but I knew I wasn’t allowed to. He had made that clear ahead of time. I didn’t get to cum until his tongue touched my clit.

He slid a finger along my soaking slit, and I could hear him chuckle. He ran his fingers down toward my ass, making sure my asshole was as slick as my pussy. His hands gripped my hips then, and I knew he was urging me to turn over. I struggled to do it with my hands restrained behind my back, but I managed. I felt the rip as he pulled the panties off my body. I had been mentally prepared for it, but the sound of the tearing fabric turned me on more than I expected.

I felt his cock slide along my slit, but not enter me. He slid along it again and again until his cock was soaked with my juices. He was thick, so thick. I didn’t think he was that long, but his thickness would more than make up for it. I felt the vibrator kick up a notch just as he pressed his cock against my puckered hole. He pressed forward, and I opened up to him. His cock slid inside me, and I moaned into the pillow. I couldn’t brace myself with my arms behind my back, but I didn’t care. It felt so good to have him pressing into my ass.

When his cock was fully pressed inside me, he gave me a moment to adjust and then he started to fuck me, fast and hard. I moaned as he fucked me, my moans reaching a fevered pitch as he turned the vibrator up again and began to spank my ass.

“Oh, god,” I moaned, “You feel so amazing filling my ass,” I screamed. My words seemed to spur him on. Without warning, he pulled all the way out of me and used his hands on my hips to urge me to flip over. When I was on my back with my legs on either side of him, he pulled me up by the light cloth I was wearing and then gripped me by the shoulder just before the slight straps ripped. He tossed the fabric aside and pulled me into a sitting position. I knew what he was after and I opened my mouth eagerly as he pressed his cock forward against my lips. I could taste myself on him, but I knew he wanted this, so I had made sure I was clean. When he was licked clean, I continued to suck his cock until he pulled it from my mouth.

The vibrations rocking my core stopped suddenly, and he pulled the vibrator out of me. I heard a thud as it hit the floor next to the bed. At the same time, he pulled the cuffs off my wrists. I stretched my arms out and wrapped them around his neck as he pinned me to the bed with his body, his cock sliding along my slit again. But this time, I knew that he was after more than just collecting some of my wetness. This time he wanted to fuck me. His cock slid home, and I moaned loudly. I felt totally full with him inside me, and I was clinging to him with both my arms and my legs. I could feel his hard, muscular body over me, but I still couldn’t see him.

“Cum for me,” I groaned, “Fill me with your cum, please!” I wanted it more than anything. I could feel him getting close; I could hear him panting. I wanted it more than I had wanted anything in my life. “Please, please, fill me with your cum,” I begged.

And he did. I could feel him spasm inside me and then the warmth of his seed as he filled me.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you,” I panted, even though I had yet to have an orgasm. His cock slid out of me, and I felt him slowly work his way down my body, first biting each of my nipples, eliciting a gasp from me. Then, swirling his tongue down between my breasts to my belly button and dipping inside. It was oddly sensual. And then finally his tongue reached my clit, and I almost orgasmed instantly. My pussy clenched and spasmed and my toes curled. I felt all the cum that he had spent inside me start to drip out, but then he was lapping at it, licking it up noisily. I wanted to take the blindfold off and watch him, but I had promised him I wouldn’t. I had promised I wouldn’t take it off at all, and I wanted to honor that promise.

When I had stopped shuddering and felt that there was no more cum inside me, he moved away from the bed, and I listened as he moved around the room. I was weak, and I wasn’t sure if I could actually get up if I had wanted to. But I waited. I heard water running, and then turning off. I heard him bumping around the main room. And then I could feel him standing over me. I didn’t know what part of me had sensed him. I didn’t hear him or see him or smell him, but I knew he was there. He leaned over and bit my nipple, and I hissed in response. He bit the other one, and I moaned, arching my back.

Then his mouth was right next to my ear, and he nipped at my earlobe. “I’ll see you next week,” he whispered and then he was gone.

When I heard the door close behind him, I took the blindfold off. I resisted the urge to go to the door and watch him walk down the hall. Then I got up and showered and dressed. I sat in the desk chair for a while, thinking about the night and how wonderful it had been. When my phone beeped, I looked at it and saw that he had sent me the money for the hotel room, just as he had promised. I set my key on top of the one he had left on the desk, and I went home.


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Ready… Set… #NaNoWriMo

I can’t believe it’s November already! Where did October go? I know I have no idea. Oy.

I can’t right much here, because it’s time to put all the words in my NaNo Novel. I’m writing another Choose Your Own Adventure. Stay tuned…

Is anyone else out there NaNo-ing? Let me know!

#NationalComingOutDay

I have lots of feelings about National Coming Out Day. My personal Facebook page is currently flooded with posts from friends proclaiming who they are: bisexual, pansexual, gay, lesbian, polyamorous, kinky, and on and on. It’s wonderful to see so many friends who are comfortable enough with themselves to share it with the world. One friend remarked, “In case you didn’t know…” I smiled because I know that she is very out about her relationships. Very Out. And I am happy for her that she can be. I know so many people who are afraid to be out to their coworkers, to their family, to their friends. I know so many people who were disowned by their families because of their sexuality or gender.

So on National Coming Out Day, I applaud those who can be open about who they are and those who are supportive of those around them. I feel empathy for those who can’t be out for whatever reason. There are many parts of myself that I have to hide because of my day job. I put up with it because I love what I do, but I sometimes live in fear of being outed: outed as polyamorous, outed as kinky, outed as an erotic fiction writer. So I hide parts of myself being a pen name, but to you – my friends and (hopefully) fans, I can be true to myself: I am polyamorous, bisexual, kinky, and I write erotic fiction.

I leave you with a paraphrase of a well-known quote: Be kind to everyone you meet. You never know what battles they are fighting.

 

July Recap #AmWriting

In July, I wrote 211 blog words, 5,247 new words, and edited 3,380 words. Compared to June, I was up in blog words and new words, but down in edits.

Although July was supposed to be the slow month of my summer, it proved to not be slow at all. It was jam packed, in fact! And I don’t even know where the first week in August went! Craziness.

My goal for August is to do a lot more editing and try to write at least 5000 new words. I’ll say my goal is to finish editing the novel I was working on editing. I’d really like to get another book out there for your consumption! Wish me luck! As for my blog, I’d like to post more often. Maybe once a week. Any thoughts on what you’d like me to post about besides word count? Anyone have any blog challenges going on soon?

What are your current writing projects?

New Words! #AmWriting

So, I tracked all the words I worded (nope, that’s not a word) from June 13th to June 30th.

I wrote 117 words for my blog.

I edited 23,206 words from my 2016 A-Z Blog.

I wrote 2,256 new words.

That’s pretty good! It’s not as good as I would like, but it’s pretty good. That’s about 1/4 of my 2016 A-Z Blog. I am working on editing it so I can publish it. I don’t know that I will get a whole lot of it done in July because I am dedicating July to something else… What, you ask?

July is CampNaNoWrtiMo. I am pledging 30 hours of research and outlining for a biography of my mother. I don’t know that I will publish it under this name, but I will be working on it so that I can write it in November.

Five days in and I have put in 3 hours. Let me tell you, writing erotica is A LOT more fun. Alas, this is an important project to me, it’s just heavy writing. So I may try to work a bit on editing and writing some fun things to keep myself engaged.

Is anyone else doing Camp? What writing projects do you all have going?

 

New Words! #AmWriting

I have written new words AND edited old ones!

Taking a page out of Nicki’s book blog, I have been tracking the number of words I have worked on. I am tracking both the number of new words I have written and the number of words I have edited.

So far, I have been tracking since June 13th. I can tell you that the only days I have gotten anything done are the days I have met with other writers. So I am trying to increase time with other writers, and hopefully increase time working independently.

I’ll report back at the end of the month (which is coming shockingly fast) and let you know how I have fared!

Royalties!? #writeon

I got my first royalty check* today! It was for $3.25. Maybe I should buy some pens… Or maybe just one pen?

Anyway, I’m super excited to actually make some money off of my novel!

*direct deposit

I have sold copies of my first novel, but I haven’t made enough on Barnes and Noble or Amazon to get a check. This one came from Smashwords. 🙂

Reflections on the #AtoZChallenge (AC)

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I have to admit that I am proud of the fact that I was able to complete the A to Z Blog Challenge in 2017!

In 2016, it took me several months to finish, but I did finally get done. This year, I wrote the entire set of posts as part of my NaNoWriMo project in November and I was able to finish the posts before April started. Granted, I didn’t have the whole set publishing ready as I had hoped, but I did manage to publish by the beginning of May and post all of my entries on time! Next year, I think I’ll write something I can pre-schedule so I can focus more of my attention on reading others’ blogs, though I definitely read more this year than in the past.

For anyone who missed it, I wrote a Choose Your Own Adventure. My readers got to vote on the choices in the month of April. If you want to read one version of the story, courtesy of fellow bloggers, click here. If you are interested in purchasing the whole novel and making your own choices, click here!

None of this would have been possible without the support of some of my writing friends (who also have awesome blogs): Tupeak Hope, Jamie, and Nicki. Much thanks for all your support! ❤

Lastly, I want to make sure to share with you my favorite blogs (from people I don’t know) that I enjoyed this year: Marquessa Matthews and Iain Kelly, both excellent fiction writers!


Feedback on the A to Z Challenge: I loved it, as I did last year! I liked having the Linky List a lot, though. It was really helpful to have because it allowed me to find other Adult Content blogs. I often feel awkward as an adult content writer going to random other blogs and commenting because what if the author is underage? What if the author would be offended by my work? But if I pick other adults who write adult content, I’m on safer ground (plus they’re more likely to be interested).

What if you had a Google Form and made the results public that we could fill out each day? That way it would be a list and people could choose a content area and it would still be less for you [the organizers] to maintain. (PS. I’m happy to show you exactly what I mean if someone from A to Z Challenge wants to contact me for clarity!) Just thinking “out loud.”

In any case, it’s a great event, as always! Thanks organizers!


Thanks for reading!

Published Book #2 – Runaway

I published my second novel! It’s tied to my 2017 A to Z Blog Challenge.

Join Aralyn as she runs from her past in this Erotic Choose Your Own Adventure novel. Aralyn leaves town when her life is turned upside down. Your blood will race as you explore a new town and new people with Aralyn. She might even get to explore a BDSM Dungeon! Make your own choices and find out.

Purchasing options:

Smashwords

Nook

Kindle

Z is for…. #AtoZChallenge (AC)

Welcome to the Z Chapter of Runaway: A Choose Your Own Adventure Novel. Please be advised, there may be adult content depending on the choices you make. Please vote for your choice and I will post the next chapter tomorrow. To start at the beginning of the story, click here or scroll through my blog for all my A to Z posts.

Your choice for Z was Ask permission.


She knew that asking permission would be the way to go. If she didn’t ask for permission, she ran the risk of getting in trouble. She was hesitant to ask him, though. What if he said no? What if her asking threw him off? She didn’t know, and she was terrified to find out. But the thought of trying to touch him without permission, when he was clearly in a dominant mood, terrified her more. So she knew she would have to ask.

“Sir,” she started. He didn’t respond, and she realized she had probably spoken so softly he couldn’t hear her. “Sir,” she said again, a little louder this time.

“Hm?” he asked.

“Sir, may I unzip your pants?”

He looked at her questioningly for a moment, then he nodded his assent and moved closer to give her access to his pants. She unzipped and unbuttoned him and took his pants and boxers down, so his cock was exposed in front of her. “Why did you want to unzip my pants?”

She hesitated for a moment on how honest she could be. “I wanted to suck your cock,” she finally whispered, a flush creeping up her face.

“Well, I suppose you could do that,” he said with a wink.

“I would like to, Sir,” she whispered, almost embarrassed at her admission.

“Then do,” he said, and he pressed his cock to her lips. She licked the length of him, savoring the salty taste of his skin. He shuddered, and she did it again. Then she took the head of his cock into her mouth and flicked her tongue across the very tip. She moved up and down on his shaft, pressing her tongue against his flesh and allowing him to push into the back of her throat. She nearly gagged but was able to control it.

He moaned and started to buck his hips against her face so that she had to take more and more of him into her mouth.

She frequently swallowed hard to stop herself from gagging. He didn’t seem to care though as he kept moving his hips against her. “That feels so good,” he groaned.

She murmured against his cock, and she knew the vibrations would drive him wild. The way he moaned confirmed her suspicion that it would. Letting his cock fall out of her mouth, she whispered, “Please fuck me, Sir.”

“Oh?” he asked. “You want to stop sucking my cock?”

“I enjoy sucking your cock, but I really want to feel you inside me, Sir.”

“I think we can accommodate that,” he said with a grin.

He rolled her onto her back and pressed his hips against hers. She opened her legs wide to him, and he pushed himself right at her opening. “Please fuck me, Sir,” she asked quietly.

“Do you want to feel me inside you?”

“Yes, Sir,” she responded promptly.

“You want me to fuck you, just like this?” he asked.

“Yes, please, Sir, please.”

He didn’t verbally respond to that, but he slipped on a condom and pressed his hips forward. Her body opened for him. She was so slick and wet with desire that it was easy for him to bury himself inside her. She moaned as he filled and stretched her.

“You feel so good, Sir,”

He didn’t respond, just grunted as he began to thrust in and out of her. He never let his cock completely leave her body, but he got close. She kept her legs open wide to him, and he kept moving in and out of her as they both groaned and gasped and moaned.

Then he suddenly stopped, buried inside her. He leaned back onto his feet and moved between her parted legs. Pressing his thumb to the tender nub beneath the folds of skin, she began to writhe beneath him, her pussy clenching. She knew that her desire was written all over her face.

She moaned as he began to fuck her again while pressing against her clit with his thumb. “Oh god,” she screamed, “Oh thank you, Sir!”

She began to buck against him as she neared orgasm. When their rhythm was off just enough for him to stop, he said, “Hold still, little one.” She tried her best to stay still, but it was so hard with him rubbing against her clit and fucking her at the same time.

When she was near to orgasm, she asked if she could. “May I orgasm, please, Sir?”

“You may,” he grunted, and it was clear that he was close to orgasm himself.

“Thank you, Sir,” she yelled as the orgasm rolled over her. As her pussy clenched around his cock, he began to pound into her faster, and she felt his release. His cock pulsed and he collapsed on top of her, just barely keeping his balance so that he dropped his weight on the bed instead of directly on her.

After a few minutes of laying there, Aralyn realized they didn’t even need to watch porn; they were practically making their own. After a while, he whispered, “I love you, Aralyn.”

“I love you, too,” she whispered back.

He kissed her on the forehead, and the two lovers fell asleep in each other’s arms.
The End


Like what you read? Start at the beginning of the story or scroll through my blog for all my A to Z posts. You can also check out my other novel for Nook or Kindle. Follow me on Twitter or Facebook. Come back in the next few days for details on purchasing all the choices for Runaway: A Choose Your Own Adventure Novel!

Y is for… #AtoZChallenge (AC)

Welcome to the Y Chapter of Runaway: A Choose Your Own Adventure Novel. Please be advised, there may be adult content depending on the choices you make. Please vote for your choice and I will post the next chapter tomorrow. To start at the beginning of the story, click here or scroll through my blog for all my A to Z posts.

Your choice for Y was Yes! She wants to go back to the hotel and watch porn.


“Well, now that you put it that way…” she let her voice trail off.

“Yes?”

“Yes,” she confirmed. “If you want to go back to the room and watch porn on your laptop we can totally do that.”

“Okay,” he said. “then let’s do it.”

She didn’t know what else to say to that, so she just let the subject drop.

Before she knew it, they were back at the hotel and checked in. The hotel was very upscale. The room had high ceilings, pale walls, tasteful art, and an enormous bed. The bathroom also had a huge whirlpool tub. “This is incredible,” she said, looking around.

“Yes, yes it is.”

He pulled her shirt over her head and unhooked her bra. He began to suckle on her breasts. He licked and kissed each nipple, nipping enough to draw a quick breath from her but not so much that she would cry out in pain. She was moaning in delight, though, and he seemed to be reveling in the noises she was making.

He tugged at the waistband of her pants and then unbuttoned and unzipped them and pulled them over her hips. Her underwear quickly followed, along with her socks and shoes and she was standing naked in front of him. He moved down her body so that he was nuzzling her right where her thighs met. He kissed her softly and felt the smoothness of her pussy lips. He flicked his tongue out, and she shuddered and gripped his shoulder, hanging on for dear life.

When he started licking from the top of her slit downward, her knees nearly buckled. “Sevy, please, I need to sit.” He roughly pushed her toward the bed, following her closely and resumed his teasing as soon as she was on the bed. She noted that he was still fully dressed but he was so intent on licking her, she didn’t think she had any choice in getting him undressed.

He licked her again right down her slit and stopped at her core. His tongue slipped inside her and pressed as far as it could go. She was aching to feel him enter her deeper. It was a very effective tease. More than anything, she wanted to feel his cock slide inside her.

But he was not going to oblige her on that just yet. Instead, he began to lick back up to her clit. His tongue circled her clit, which peaked out of its hood at his prodding. But then he moved away from her clit and began to kiss and nibble on the inside of her thighs. She was becoming desperate for him to stop teasing her but she knew there was practically no chance of him appeasing her. He was obviously enjoying driving her crazy. He moved around so that he was sideways to her and Sevy was able to reach over and pinch her nipples as he licked her pussy. She realized that with just a little bit of a stretch, she could reach the zipper on his jeans.

Did she dare to unzip his pants without asking permission?

Unzip his pants!

OR

Ask permission first.


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