#NaNoWriMo – And we’re off!

Have you ever done NaNoWriMo? It’s my favorite time of year.

Pumpkins and falling leaves and many, many words!

I am dedicated to updating you daily (I hope) on my progress throughout the month. So, stick with me for a wild ride!

Goal: 104,203 which brings my lifetime November total to 750,000.

The most I’ve ever written in a month is 100,005 words. For reference, my wordiest day was 26,000 words in November, but I wrote 50,000 in 24 hours in July. So hopefully by Thanksgiving, I will have about 50,000 words and then I’ll boost that number the Saturday after Thanksgiving.

Thanks for being my faithful readers! I look forward to a fun month!

TMI Tuesday

So here’s the thing… I keep forgetting when it’s Tuesday because my writing group changed. So, a day late, but still here!

1. Do you like tattoos? Do you have any tattoos?

I love Tattoos and I do have one. And I am considering more!

2. How did you pick your online profile name?

My husband and I picked it. He chose the initials J. R. and I decided what they were going to stand for.

3. What’s one saying you try to live by?

You cannot pour from an empty cup.

Without sounding selfish, I have been working really hard for the last few years on making sure that I take care of myself as well as my family.

4. What was the last bad meal you ate? Why was it so awful?

I ate a slightly burned grilled cheese recently. I like my grilled cheese under cooked, as opposed to overcooked. But, it wasn’t that bad. I just can’t think of anything else that’s bad that I ate.

5. When was your last bad sexual encounter? Why was it so awful?

Ooo, this one takes more thought. There have been some less than stellar ones lately, but nothing that was awful. But what made it not so good was that I just didn’t connect emotionally with the person.

Bonus: Tell us something random.

I love random number generators. I have, in fact, used a table and random number generators to choose meals (among many other things), including character characteristics!

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Progress!

I have actually been editing!

I edited about 10 chapters today and I only have 20 left (of 66) to finish editing Y is for Yes! I may do one more read through to make sure I have everything before I get it ready for publishing, but that depends a lot on time. I am determined to get this book out this month!

On a side note: I love when I answer my own questions. As I’m reading, I jot down notes – foreshadowing details and the like to make sure they go somewhere or get addressed later. I love when I find that I have answered those questions within the next chapter or two!

Current Project Update

Hello faithful readers!

In August, I had set a goal to finish editing Y is for Yes from July. Unfortunately, I #failed at that goal, but I haven’t given up on it! With renewed interest, I am working on editing that, and hope to have it out before NaNoWriMo next month.

I also would like to update the cover of my second novel, Runaway. The cover image in my head just didn’t stand up to reality.

AND I would like to edit and re-release my first novel (written in 2013), Slave. I’ve learned so much since I wrote it, and I would really like to see it through to a better novel.

That’s a tall order with just ~3 weeks left in the month. But, as my friend over at Uniquely Maladjusted But Fun said, “If anyone else said they wanted to do that, I’d think they were crazy, but you might actually do it.”

And what’s the worst that happens? I don’t reach my goal, but I move steadily toward it.

So here’s to accomplishing goals and never giving up!

#NaNoWriMo

It is (almost) that time of year again! Whoa. Where did the year go? Seriously.

In any case, as it’s October, my local NaNoWriMo group gets together once a week to Plot! It’s one of the most fun and more social events of the year. So even though we meet every week year around, October has a lot more focus.

So the other night at the event, I started throwing around ideas. Do I start a new project? Finish last year’s project? Work on the joint project with two other people (where we each write chapters)? Work on my A to Z Blog Challenge Blogs?

Keeping in mind that I am aiming to write 104,203 words (which takes my lifetime NaNo word count to 750,000 words). So some of those projects are just not long enough to make that happen.

I’ll save you the two hours of waffling between ideas and tell you what I figured out!

I am going to work on… *wait for it*… multiple projects!

I can write ~20,000 words in my group project, ~20,000 words for my A to Z Blog Challenge*, and hopefully make progress on last year’s NaNo**. And my backup plan is to take one of the stories I started in April and continue that! All the options!

*More on this idea later!

**Last year, I worked on a Choose Your Own Adventure. 100,000 words and I am not nearly done. The down side is that I have to review what I already wrote so that I’m able to continue the story.


Thanks for keeping up with my crazy plans! I’m editing and I’m making progress, and hopefully there will be some great new content for you coming before the end of the month!

TMI Tuesday

Whoops… I forgot that it’s Wednesday and Tuesday was yesterday, but what the hell. Here are my answers!

1. If you had three wishes that would come true, what would they be?

This is the hardest question. I actually skipped it at first, but now I’m back to it.

The scope of this question is so broad – I could go political, world peace, curing cancer, and so on and so on.

But I don’t think that’s the spirit of the question.

So I’m going to focus on things I wish related to my writing (since that’s what this blog is about): a) That my writing/blog will help or entertain someone else; b) That I’ll publish another novel this month; c) That I’ll be able to financially support myself with my writing.

2. What are your favorite things to spend money on?

Food and entertainment! I love to get enjoyment out of the money I have.

3. If you could write a song about your life, what type of music would you use?

It would definitely be pop. Something catching and upbeat, with a slower section.

4. If you could choose your partner again, would you choose the same person?

I have multiple partners, but YES, 1000 times yes! Particularly my husband. For all the tough times we’ve been through, I have never loved him more than I do now.

5. When it comes to discussing your sex life, who do you confide in more than anyone else?

I have a couple of friends who I know I can tell everything to. No judgement. No bull shit. Just lots of love (platonic!).

Bonus: What’s your definition of cheating? Is there really such a thing?

Doing things that aren’t agreed to in your relationship. For me, I negotiate the terms and expectations in a relationship, and if someone violates that, it’s cheating.

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#amediting

I am back at editing! It’s a slow process, but I got through two more chapters. Hopefully I can make a lot of headway soon. My schedule is going to clear up a lot after this week, so fingers crossed that I can get Y is for Yes out by the end of the month!

TMI Tuesday

1. Which animal listed below represents your true sexual self?
a. Chipmunk – cute and cuddly
b. Monkey – all about being mischievousness
c. Tiger – I’ve earned my stripes

a) Definitely. I am the epitome of cute and cuddly. My partners often remark at how cute I am, and I am cuddly with literally everyone if I don’t hold myself back.

2. Your partner is in the mood for sexy fun and you are tired – what do you do?
a. Start snoring. There is no way I’m giving it up tonight.
b. Trade. You give me a massage… and we will see…
c. That would never happen!

It depends. It doesn’t happen often anymore, so I would lean toward C, but B is often the case as well. I love being woken up on a weekend by a nice massage… that leads to more.

3. Which of these sexual descriptive labels closely matches you?
a. Dominant
b. Submissive
c. Top
d. Bottom
e. Switch
f. Kinkster

e) Switch – but I lean more submissive than Dominant.

4. Would you rather have your enemy eaten by a shark or die in an earthquake getting swallowed up by earth?

Either is fine. But I do like sharks, so probably the earthquake.

5. For the next year, would you rather be dressed like a mime every day OR look normal but not be allowed to talk?

Dress like a mime! I am a chatterbox. I can’t help it!

Bonus: What’s the most beautiful word in the world?

Love. ❤

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#Fail

I wanted to have another novel published this summer. I pushed in August to get one done. And yet… nothing is even remotely close to being publish-ready.

As a good friend of mine says, “It is what it is.”

But I’m not giving up! I’m going to keep trying. I have no idea what I’m writing in November, so I need to figure that out before we get to NaNo. So if I can finish and publish this novel by mid-October, that would give me some time to figure out what the hell I’m doing for November…

Sorry this post got boring. But the message is:

Don’t give up on your goals!

TMI Tuesday

1. What promises have you never carried through for yourself?

I played the piano as a child, and I have wanted to get back into it for years. I promised myself I would, and yet I don’t work toward the goal.

2. If you could change one law of your country, what would it be?

Just one?

Listen, I try to stay out of politics as a writer because I feel like my expertise in this realm is erotic fiction, not politics.

But since you asked… If I could only pick one, it would probably be something to do with limiting the guns that shoot many, many rounds in a second. (Not the ones for personal protection, not the ones for hunting, but the ones that kill lots of people when used improperly. I don’t want to debate it, I just don’t think they’re necessary for average citizen use.)

3. Are you a starter or a finisher?

I’m a starter, I’m sad to say. I want to finish more, but I’m really good at starting!

4. How do Mondays feel for you? What about Tuesdays?

Mondays are… Okay. There are some positives about them. I generally like my job, and my favorite TV show is on Monday nights.

Tuesdays are better though. There are times with friends after work on Tuesdays that make life great.

5. What scares you about your future?

Oh relationships scare the crap out of me. Start new ones, old ones ending, whatever the case is. I know that it’s all worth it, and I am very happy with the way I’m living my life with my husband, but the uncertainly of being poly scares me. I wouldn’t change it though, and I have given it *lots* of thought.

Bonus: What do you wish you cared less about?

Perfection. I am constantly taking time to do more to make things just right, things that aren’t worth the time I’m investing. Maybe someday I’ll care less. I’m actively working on letting go of some of those things though.

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TMI Tuesday

Oops, I missed Tuesday and I was just going to skip it until I saw the questions!

1. You can only keep 3 things: (pick and explain your choices)

Coffee
Jewelry
Books
Chocolate
Wine or Beer
Netflix
Tacos

Jewelry: I’m never without my rings and earrings. Books: How could I do without? Netflix: I love movies.

Plus there’s no chocolate, coffee, or beer in my life, and I like wine, but I don’t need it.

2. If your job gave you a surprise 3-day paid break, what would you do with those three days?

Clean! Okay, probably not, but I should. I would probably write.

3. Have you ever had a threesome? What was the configuration?

Many, many times. My husband and I have both MMF and FFM threesomes. We’re both bi, so it’s fun to experiment!

4. In a threesome, do you like to be the star attraction or a bit player/personal assistant?

I like both. I can sit back and be happy to watch my husband with someone else and be perfectly content (and turned on!) but I do prefer to be the star attraction. Balance in all things though!

5. Would you have another threesome?

Hell yeah. We’ll likely have one soon.

Bonus: Rate your last threesome on a scale of 1-5, 5 being fantastic.

6. Oh oops, that’s off the scale.

One of the things that made it so great was that it was unexpected. Our partner was staying over for convenience for the plans we’d made and we were just going to cuddle… And oops! Next thing you know is 2:30am and everyone has had orgasms. Yay!

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Body Image

The other day, as I was catching up on blogs, I came across a post from Meg Sorick which included the following quote:

She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful for the way she thought. She was beautiful for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn’t beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful deep down to her soul. ~ F. Scott Fitzgerald

I loved Meg’s take on the quote and how it related to her writing, but it’s something that I have thought a lot about in my own life, as well as in my writing.

In my writing, sometimes my main character isn’t described physically in a lot of detail. As some of my friends have read those works, I asked if they noticed and they didn’t. They all kind of imagined themselves in the role, which makes sense as it’s first-person writing. I want to allow the reader to fill in the blank with whatever physical characteristics they fantasize about or apply to them.

But I realize that this method doesn’t work for everyone, and sometimes I write very detailed descriptions of the characters. But I notice when I read novels, I tend to get bored reading a paragraph long description of physical characteristics. I’m fine if it comes out gradually, but even in prominent name writer’s books, sometimes it gets to be too much for me.

But let’s talk about me for a minute (since it’s my blog and all). I have *always* had a problem with self-image. I know some of you reading this know what I’m talking about. I constantly find myself thinking that my belly has grown in the past few years, and that my thighs are just so massive, and that I wish the flab on my arms would go away. I go to the gym when my physical abilities allow me to. I work in a job where I’m on my feet all day. I try to eat healthy as often as I can. It’s just one of those things.

And yet, when I look at the people I date, really look at them, they aren’t any more perfect than I am. But I find each one of them sexy and/or cute. And each one has a physical characteristic (or two) that I am really attracted to, but what really draws me to these people is who they are on the inside and how they make me feel. What makes me care about someone is not what they look like, but who they are.

So why can’t I apply that same logic to my own looks? My partners frequently tell me that I am beautiful or sexy. I know that I make people smile. One of my best friends calls me Sunshine. But sometimes (okay, most of the time), I have trouble seeing it. But I try to remember quotes like this one, which stuck out in my mind for days. I try to see myself as others see me. And I try to remind myself that it’s not about my big thighs or my pudgy belly, but the way I make others feel that really matter.

Gooood Morning!

Usually I post polished (or mostly polished) fiction, but today I’m going to post something a little different. I have always been pretty private about my life because my privacy is very important to me. Only because I have a day job that requires discretion.

So as I’ve thought about what I could or should write on here that would be more than short stories or answering TMI Tuesday questions, I thought about what I like reading in other blogs. I love to hear real life stories about other people’s experiences.

So I thought I would tell you a bit about my very wonderful morning…

I woke up after hubby, as always, but he had stayed in bed. We lay next to each other reading for a little while (blogs for me, gaming books for him) and then we instinctively rolled toward each other on the big bed. He playfully spanked my ass lightly. I told him he was being a tease… Whoops.

Now let me tell you about our dynamic. If you’ve followed my blog at all, you may have noticed it has a lot of BDSM elements. In some aspects, we are a 24/7 D/s couple. If he wants sex, he’ll get it. Outside the bedroom and play time, we’re equals in all things: raising the kids, budgeting, running the household, etc. But if we’re alone, and he wants it to be playtime, it is.

Anyway, this morning.

He kissed me and rolled me over so he could really spank me. I can sit here and tell you I didn’t really like the sharp sting (I much prefer a thuddy cane), but my wet pussy doesn’t lie.

Then he started playing with my clit and fingering me. But he wasn’t getting me to orgasm. We’ve been together more than a decade, so it’s unusual for him to not get me off quickly. And then he whispered in my ear, “Do you want to cum?”

Of course I said yes.

“Maybe next time you’ll think twice about telling me I’m a tease. This is teasing.”

Shit.

Thankfully he did let me cum, but only with the understanding that I was going to suck him clean after he fucked me. I don’t like doing it, but when he asks, I always do.

With that understanding secured, he slid down the bed and got between my legs. Using both his fingers and his tongue, he had me screaming into a pillow in moments. Then he crawled back up my body and slid inside me. I held on tight, loving the feel of his cock inside me and the strength in his arms as he held himself above me.

After he filled me with his cum, he rolled off and I crawled over, taking him into my mouth. I am not a huge fan of the taste of myself, but it’s worth it to hear his grunts of pleasure as I suck his softening cock.

We had a quick cuddle, and then up to start the day! No rest for the weary, but at least we got to have a little fun. 🙂

Success!

I had a lot of trouble keeping up with reading all the amazing blogs I have found. Most were from the A to Z Blog Challenge, and comments on those other blogs led me to more amazing blogs. I followed all of them and subscribed to emails so I would see the new posts. That was all fine and dandy until I didn’t look at that email for a month. Oops.

For the last couple days I have been working really hard to get through them all, read and comment. And today I did it!

I also want to make sure I keep my own blog up to date. I’m not sure who out there keeps coming back, but I have hits on the site every day, so someone’s checking for new content!

Let me know if there’s anything you want me to talk about here besides uploading fiction.

Speaking of fiction… I have been working on editing Y is for Yes, which was the ultimate winner of the 26 stories I started in April. It’s all written now! So, it’s just a matter of editing, cover art, and formatting and then I can get that out there!

I am hoping to be able to do it by the end of August, so stay tuned (and feel free to poke me about it)!

TMI Tuesday

1. Is falling in love effortless?
Unfortunately, I think it’s a lot more effortless for me than it should be. I fall hard and fast and easy, and that is not good combined with emotionally attaching to people. And honestly, it doesn’t even have to be someone I’m in a relationship with. I attach to friends as well and don’t want to give them up. I do like to share though, in more ways than one, but people find their way into my heart easily.

2. Is your significant other most like your mom or your dad?
At first I was like, “Whaaaat?” and then I remembered just how much my husband is like my father. They have a lot of the same tastes in movies and music and, to no surprise, they get along well.

3. Which parent do you identify with most?
I am very close to my mom, but my dad and I have more in common in more ways than I care to admit.

4. What one thing are you lacking that you believe will make your life run smoother?
Does time count? How about $1,000,000?

Honestly, my life runs pretty smoothly most of the time. I invest a lot of time in schedules and patterns, and that helps. Plus I have the best husband EVAR. (Fight me.)

5. Which is sexier: constantly pushing the boundaries or playing by the rules?

Oh I love pushing boundaries, especially my own. I like saying, “Okay, here’s the limit, now bend it.” This is particularly fun with caning and paddles and other implements of pleasurable pain.

Bonus: Do you think confessions make a relationship stronger?

I think that open and honest communication make a relationship stronger. But if there have been secrets, that’s probably not good. But sometimes we bottle things up and lie to ourselves just to keep sane, and eventually that comes out. And when it does, if you work on it together, it can be stronger.

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TMI Tuesday

Every time I have written “Tuesday” today, I’ve missed a letter. Oy! Here we go:

1. Picture the child you once were, what did that child do very well?

I was a good student. I was always close to my teachers and did everything everyone asked of me. For better or worse, I always said yes! (I even somehow found myself volunteering for an abstinence education group even though I was already sexually active myself! But someone asked, and I said yes!)

2. What are you really good at now?

Saying no! I’ve tried really hard, especially recently, to learn my limits (in and out of the bedroom), and make sure that I say no when I’ve hit my limit.

3. Did you ever expect love in return and not get it?

I don’t know that I can say I ever “expect” love. It’s lovely to have it, and sometimes I wish for it or am hopeful for it and have had it not returned. But I don’t feel like it was ever an expectation.

4. Who do you need to get in touch with because it has been so long?

Oh jeeze. I have friends I should probably get in touch with. I missed the window with a family friend who passed away, and I’ve tried to learn from that mistake and stay in touch with people, but I’m imperfect.

5. What are your thoughts on this: “Every woman deserves her special day. I get that. But does it really have to cost so much fucking money? I mean, c’mon. If you’re serious about building a future with a guy, why bankrupt him?”

Oh interesting. Well, I mean, I like to be spoiled (and I think I am pretty spoiled), but it doesn’t have to be financial. Just like when I put my feet in my boyfriend’s lap and he rubs them automatically, I feel loved and special. That doesn’t cost him anything. Or when my husband drops me off at the door to a restaurant because he knows my feet are bothering me. That doesn’t cost him anything.

Plus, I think there has to be a balance. I spoil my partners just as much as they spoil me, or I try to anyway. We don’t “keep score.”

Bonus: What is your number one priority?

Myself. I don’t want to sound selfish, but I have learned over the past few years that if I don’t take care of myself, I have nothing to give to others.

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Last chance to vote! #AtoZChallenge

Voting is now open for the two favorite stories I continued in May:

L is for Lifeguard vs. Y is for Yes

In April, as part of the A to Z Blog Challenge, I posted a story for every letter of the alphabet. By combining likes, comments, and votes, I determined the favorite from each week and they got a continuation.

In June, I posted the continuation of those four stories. I apologize for not spacing them out as I intended, but life (and travel got in the way). So I have whittled it down to L is for Lifeguard vs. Y is for Yes.

Next week begins CampNaNo, during which I have a goal to write 100,000 words, splitting my time between writing the novel for whichever of those stories gets the most votes, and a new writing project I am working on with two friends. This is your last chance to vote and your last chance to be the one lucky winner who leaves their email* on the Google Form will get a free copy of the finish ebook!

*I do not have an email list and will not email you or sell/give away your email address for any reason and will only contact you to tell you that you’re the winner and give you the book. So no worries about entering!

Voting is now open for the last two. You can like the post, comment on it, or vote by clicking the link below. Thanks to everyone who has participated so far! The end is near! I will leave voting open until the end of June!

Vote! Vote! Vote!

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Y is for Yes – Part 3 #AtoZChallenge

Here is the next installment to my story Y is for Yes, which was the favorite for the second two stories in May.

If you didn’t read Y is for Yes, you’ll want to go back and read that and its continuation first. If you don’t know what’s going on, check out my Theme Reveal for full details.


The heat growing between my legs was boiling. I hadn’t expected it. I hadn’t expected any of it. But here we were, in my office, and I was about to be nearly nude.

“I suppose we had better slip you out of this skirt before it stains, then.”

I watched him, biting my lower lip as his fingers gently moved to the zipper next to my hip. He touched me so little as he unzipped it, just the lightest brush of his fingers, and all I wanted was to feel them pressed against my flesh until they bruised.

I used his shoulder for balance as I stepped out of my skirt. I stumbled just a little, and his hand came up to my hip to steady me. The touch was electric, and I couldn’t suppress a shudder. When I was steady, he left his hand there a touch longer, and then he took a step back from me. “Would you like me to help you take your bra off, Yvonne?”

“Yes, please,” I whispered, and I turned around so he could unclasp it. He slid the shoulder straps down, but my hands were covering my breasts, so the fabric stayed in place. I turned back to him, and he waited. He didn’t push, or comment, or make impatient noises; he just waited for me to move my hands. I did, slowly, my eyes locked on his. He met my gaze until my arms started to move, and then his gaze dropped lower. He actually moaned as my breasts were exposed to him, creamy pale skin that had never seen the light of the sun. My pink nipples were hard little nubs, making my large nipples appear much smaller. A grin formed at the corners of his lips and grew as he observed me.

“Yvonne,” he groaned my name, and this time it brought forth a gush of arousal from between my legs.

He dropped to his knees in front of me. “Did you get coffee on these little satin panties?”

I didn’t know that my panties qualified as little, but I let it go. “I don’t think so,” I said, a little thrill of anticipation in my voice. Was Derek just saying that so he could get me out of them?

“Well, they are soaked through, Yvonne. If it’s not coffee, then what is it?”

I blushed furiously. He ran a finger over my panties, right over my slit and I knew that I was so aroused that I was soaking through them.

“Yvonne, answer me.”

I didn’t know what to say. “It’s-it’s-” I stuttered. He waited, a little impatient this time. “I’m so turned on,” I said, not able to meet his eyes.

He grinned up at me again, taking my confession as permission to touch me. His hands ran up my leg, and I knew that he was feeling a few days worth of stubble since my last shave. I was embarrassed. When he reached my panties, he didn’t take them off or slip his fingers underneath them, but he explored across the fabric all the same. I moaned at his soft touch. He moved upward, trailing his hands along my sides until he was at my breasts. He cupped one in each hand, feeling the weight of them. “Yvonne, you are beautiful.”

The blush that had been fading came back in full force. He let go of my breasts, and I fought not to groan in protest. But then his arms were wrapped around me, his hands in my hair and he pulled me against him so that my breasts were pressed against his soft shirt.

“Kiss me,” he said quietly, and I didn’t hesitate.

I closed the distance between us and pressed my lips against his, but that was where my illusion of control ended.


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L is for Lifeguard – Part 3 #AtoZChallenge

Here is the next installment to my story L is for Lifeguard, which was the favorite for the first two stories in May.

If you didn’t read L is for Lifeguard, you’ll want to go back and read that and its continuation first. If you don’t know what’s going on, check out my Theme Reveal for full details.


Within another 12 hours, the hospital was ready to send me home. I wasn’t sure that I was ready to go home, but they definitely wanted me gone. My nurse came in to go over discharge instructions with me. “Your fiancé is going to take you home, right?”

Fiancé?

“Yes.”

Wait, I didn’t say that. Who said that? Jack? Shit, Jack said it.

My mouth dropped open, and I started to protest when I got a sharp elbow to the ribs from Julie.

I shut my mouth and nodded in agreement.

When the nurse pushed my wheelchair into the sunlight, the first thing I saw was an old blue Subaru station wagon. “Sorry, my car isn’t anything special,” he said.

“No, it’s fine,” I said. “Thank you for taking us home.” He helped me get settled into the front seat and settled Julie in the back. I was surprised to see a booster seat in the back seat for her. “Why do you have a car seat?” I asked.

“I take my niece out a lot, so I picked one up a while back. I just haven’t taken it out of my car.”

“Well, that was fortuitous.”

“It was,” he agreed. He put the car in gear. “So, uh, where do you live?”

“Oh!” I laughed. I gave him the address, and he put it in the GPS app on his phone which he attached to the dashboard.

“I can’t wait to get home,” Julie said. She babbled on in the back seat about how she wanted to see her friend who lived next door and how she couldn’t wait to sleep in her own bed. I let her chatter, giving an occasional, “Oh!” or “Uh huh.” She did explain that we had to pretend that Jack and I were engaged so they wouldn’t give them a hard time about him staying there and taking care of Julie.

When we pulled up in front of the house, Julie practically leaped from the car and ran to the neighbor’s gate. I wanted to call her back and reprimand her for running off without permission, but I just didn’t have the energy.

“Thanks for taking us home,” I said again.

“It’s no problem.”

I didn’t know what else to say, and I started to get out of the car, but he said, “Marigold?” and I stopped dead.

No one called me Marigold. I went by Mari. Everyone I knew called me Mari. But Jack wouldn’t have known that. We had never spoken before. And he would have seen my name on the medical charts.

“Call me Mari,” I said stiffly.

“I’m sorry, Mari,” he said. A hush fell over the car, and we sat staring at each other for a moment. “I know that we really don’t know each other, but I feel like I know you after spending so much time with Julie.”

A flutter of fear went through me. He was good eye candy, but that’s all he was ever supposed to be. We weren’t supposed to be friends. And now he and Julie had become besties, apparently. I didn’t know how to take that.

“I want to get to know you for myself, Mari.”

My mouth was dry. I was more nervous than I had ever been. All I wanted was to get inside and take a shower and sleep in my own bed. But I couldn’t do that. I had to follow Julie and find out if the neighbors were home and make arrangements for her to play there or bring her home. And here was Jake… no Jack practically hitting on me. What was I ever going to do?


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TMI Tuesday

1. Is your sex life more fantasy or reality?

It’s a little of both. The reality fuels the fantasy.

2. If you could hook-up with a past lover (with no repercussions or regret), who would it be and why? (No need to use real names just briefly describe the person and their relationship to you.)

Ooo, this is interesting. I am particularly happy with the lovers I have, so it’s hard to think back. I do have one that was short lived, but enjoyable in bed. We dated for a week in High School, but it was a good relationship. If I believed in regrets, I would regret breaking things off with him.

3. You can only indulge in one of the following sex acts for the rest of your life, which would you choose to enjoy?
a. oral sex, only giving
b. 69
(c). oral sex, only receiving
d. mutual masturbation

Hands down it’s my favorite thing!

4. With each lover do you pay attention to what they want or do you have a repertoire that you stick to when having sex?

The fun for me is doing different things that please my partner. I have found that there are things that I enjoy with one partner that I may not enjoy with another. Their enjoyment is a huge part of my enjoyment.

5. Do you initiate sex for healthful benefits, e.g., to sleep better or relieve pain?

Yes, absolutely. Sometimes it’s just because I want to, but sometimes it’s stress relief. When I have a huge desire to sub, it’s usually for stress relief.

Bonus: Do you understand the clitoris?

Yes, at least, I understand my own. I haven’t had a girlfriend enough to figure out another woman’s, but my basic understanding is that each person is slightly different.

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